Today is the last day of such priceless year... a year filled with memories.. a year filled with tears and laughter...
Today is also the last day of the last year of which me and close friends are stuck in the same class....
Next year... or rather tomorrow... we'll all go our separated ways....
Today i woke up.... woke up feeling a lil sad... a lil excited.... a lil nostalgic.....
Tomorrow new horizons will rise into my sights.....
I am ready. I will be ready. For new challenges. New obstacles. New walls.
But with the Lord within me. There is nothing I fear. Except for Him.
Here I just wanna say a BIG thank you to all my friends. A thank you for going through my ups and downs with me! Going through my lil and bigs drama's! THANK YOU!
nostlagia fills my soul,
joyce
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
stupid school...
WHAT IS THE POINT OF PARENTS GOING TO REGISTRATION WHEN A SIBLING OR THE TEEN THEMSELVES CAN PAY FEES?
THEY SAY THE PARENTS HAVE TO SIGN SOMETHING! CANT THEY HAVE ASKED THEM TO SIGN IT EARLIER WHEN THEY GAVE OUT REPORT CARDS?
GOSH.....
I went with my sister and it turns out i did not receive a paper for my mom to fill in and they only wanted to see parents and if you're parents weren't there, they would dismiss you.
Like WTF?!
this school stinks to pits..... and who puts a marathon jog on the eve of chinese new year!?
i bet you if they did that a day before hari raya it would be different.... so much more difference....
mad at monkeys,
joyce
THEY SAY THE PARENTS HAVE TO SIGN SOMETHING! CANT THEY HAVE ASKED THEM TO SIGN IT EARLIER WHEN THEY GAVE OUT REPORT CARDS?
GOSH.....
I went with my sister and it turns out i did not receive a paper for my mom to fill in and they only wanted to see parents and if you're parents weren't there, they would dismiss you.
Like WTF?!
this school stinks to pits..... and who puts a marathon jog on the eve of chinese new year!?
i bet you if they did that a day before hari raya it would be different.... so much more difference....
mad at monkeys,
joyce
abt that weird boy
it turned out that weird boy was a good friend of mine...
he isnt weird... just a bit eccentric....
he isnt a monkey... just cheeky....
abt the telling people he's hot part.... well thats true...
and he is charming and single ladies!!!!
haahhaahahahah!!!!
he is also a good friend!
haha,
joyce
p.s : any better, john? i gave you a free ad!
he isnt weird... just a bit eccentric....
he isnt a monkey... just cheeky....
abt the telling people he's hot part.... well thats true...
and he is charming and single ladies!!!!
haahhaahahahah!!!!
he is also a good friend!
haha,
joyce
p.s : any better, john? i gave you a free ad!
weird boys
I met this really weird guy and he couldnt stop telling people he was hot!
He was funny and charming and all but dude, he looked like a monkey!!!
hahahahahahaha!!!!
He also had braces!!!
talk abt monkey with metal!!!!
LOL,
joyce
He was funny and charming and all but dude, he looked like a monkey!!!
hahahahahahaha!!!!
He also had braces!!!
talk abt monkey with metal!!!!
LOL,
joyce
I can't believe....
Time flies.... It really does... I remember the first day of schooling of 2008 just like it happenend yesterday.....
Today its the last monday of 2008....
tmw is the last tuesday of 2008.....
wednesday will be the last day of 2008....
2008 was like this life changing, social circle changing, attitude changing year....
I learnt more about my friends, my sisters, my family, my school, myself and most importantly, God. And how He plays such a huge role in my life. How sad my life would be if i didnt trust and believe in him.
2008 brought alot of happy moments into my life. I met new friends who knew me yet i had no idea they existed. They too taught me of how humble i should be and how I should be around people. They taught me more about respect and humility. I learnt new ways to reach out to people. Reach out to the Lord. I learnt ways to change my habits. I learnt how to please people by talking nicely. doing things the right way. hearing and listening to the advice people give.
2008 also brought some sadness. not alot. but sadness altogether. I lost a friend. not death. but i lost her. it isnt her fault she changed. it was no ones fault. it was just change. i lost a teacher. a teacher who once said to me that i could do great things if i strived for it. he died. he died alone. he died and no one was there with him. no one was there with him to share his pain. my school grieved his pain. and for those who didnt. may god bless your soul for you have no more warmth in your heart to feel grief and sorrow.
2008 was a great year. we all had our ups and downs. we had our high rise and fall. we had our good and bad times. It was a memorable year.
may 2009 be a better, stronger, and greater year for us to live, laugh, learn and love!
nostalgia within pours out,
joyce
Today its the last monday of 2008....
tmw is the last tuesday of 2008.....
wednesday will be the last day of 2008....
2008 was like this life changing, social circle changing, attitude changing year....
I learnt more about my friends, my sisters, my family, my school, myself and most importantly, God. And how He plays such a huge role in my life. How sad my life would be if i didnt trust and believe in him.
2008 brought alot of happy moments into my life. I met new friends who knew me yet i had no idea they existed. They too taught me of how humble i should be and how I should be around people. They taught me more about respect and humility. I learnt new ways to reach out to people. Reach out to the Lord. I learnt ways to change my habits. I learnt how to please people by talking nicely. doing things the right way. hearing and listening to the advice people give.
2008 also brought some sadness. not alot. but sadness altogether. I lost a friend. not death. but i lost her. it isnt her fault she changed. it was no ones fault. it was just change. i lost a teacher. a teacher who once said to me that i could do great things if i strived for it. he died. he died alone. he died and no one was there with him. no one was there with him to share his pain. my school grieved his pain. and for those who didnt. may god bless your soul for you have no more warmth in your heart to feel grief and sorrow.
2008 was a great year. we all had our ups and downs. we had our high rise and fall. we had our good and bad times. It was a memorable year.
may 2009 be a better, stronger, and greater year for us to live, laugh, learn and love!
nostalgia within pours out,
joyce
Sunday, December 28, 2008
to that certain someone out there
yeah... you know who you are...
you are, as the following, :
charming ( gag a lil)
weirdly funny ( makes me laugh like nobody's business)
awesomely lame ( LOL)
sensitively sweet? ( aiyayai! )
LOL!!! writing this make me laugh uncontrollably and giggle like a ten year old!
ahahahahahahahah!
talking to some monkey,
joyce
you are, as the following, :
charming ( gag a lil)
weirdly funny ( makes me laugh like nobody's business)
awesomely lame ( LOL)
sensitively sweet? ( aiyayai! )
LOL!!! writing this make me laugh uncontrollably and giggle like a ten year old!
ahahahahahahahah!
talking to some monkey,
joyce
My 12 days of Christmas!!!
i know this is a lil late but i'll just tell ya'll anyway! hahahahahaha
I went to kl on the 15th! arrived there only to find i had lost my wallet or most possibly got pick pocketed. yes. i was broke. i didnt even have a cent on me. thank goodness i was just flying to kl and not to the other side of the world. i told leon (my cousin) and guess what he did? he burst into a ball of laughter. haha. thinking back. yeah it was funny. ahahha.
i called my sister charlotte and she was all: What?! where?! when?! how?!!
hahah... love her to death.... she told me mom that night and instead of are you ok and sympathy i get: HOW DID YOU LOSE YOUR WALLET? AIYO WHY SO CARELESS?
i was like: you think i expected this to happen meh?>
anyway. i spent some time with my cousins leon and feonna before packing for camp. hahah. was so nervous i couldnt sleep. and i couldnt sleep coz leon and chee zhen kept watching friends and laughing out loud in the living room.
CAMP WAS AWESOME!!!! HAHAAHHA! AM SO PROUD OF MY COUSINS AND SISTERS!!! HAHAHAHAH! I met alot of people made new friends! ahahhaha! learnt new things abt God as well! and i lost my voice along the way!!!
ahahhhaah!
i met some of my old friends! boy, we have all changed! looks and personality!
ahahhaah!
the funniest part of camp! most of em didnt know i was related to michelle and mandy or ju hann or su anne and when they found out they were like : What?! ARe you serious?
ahahahahahah!
so yeah. spending christmas in kl is fun! hahahaha! you get to shop and spend some quality time with cousins and my gparents!
ahahahha!
i love kl....... must find a shirt that says that.....
hehe...
me and my hols,
joyce
I went to kl on the 15th! arrived there only to find i had lost my wallet or most possibly got pick pocketed. yes. i was broke. i didnt even have a cent on me. thank goodness i was just flying to kl and not to the other side of the world. i told leon (my cousin) and guess what he did? he burst into a ball of laughter. haha. thinking back. yeah it was funny. ahahha.
i called my sister charlotte and she was all: What?! where?! when?! how?!!
hahah... love her to death.... she told me mom that night and instead of are you ok and sympathy i get: HOW DID YOU LOSE YOUR WALLET? AIYO WHY SO CARELESS?
i was like: you think i expected this to happen meh?>
anyway. i spent some time with my cousins leon and feonna before packing for camp. hahah. was so nervous i couldnt sleep. and i couldnt sleep coz leon and chee zhen kept watching friends and laughing out loud in the living room.
CAMP WAS AWESOME!!!! HAHAAHHA! AM SO PROUD OF MY COUSINS AND SISTERS!!! HAHAHAHAH! I met alot of people made new friends! ahahhaha! learnt new things abt God as well! and i lost my voice along the way!!!
ahahhhaah!
i met some of my old friends! boy, we have all changed! looks and personality!
ahahhaah!
the funniest part of camp! most of em didnt know i was related to michelle and mandy or ju hann or su anne and when they found out they were like : What?! ARe you serious?
ahahahahahah!
so yeah. spending christmas in kl is fun! hahahaha! you get to shop and spend some quality time with cousins and my gparents!
ahahahha!
i love kl....... must find a shirt that says that.....
hehe...
me and my hols,
joyce
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
A day out with....
The first day(sunday)
I went out with my mom and my sister charlotte to One Borneo.
had lunch at new york new york.
loved it. great food. great ambiance. great service.
while eating, was text msg-ing mich.
she told me she was coming. i was happy
hehe. we met up at padini.
or rather mich and cammy cornered me in padini.
haha. we did a lil retail therapy.
bought several tops. for christmas and new year. hehe.
we even managed to buy matching tops! hahahah!
Well, after a day shopping,
mich went to find her dad.
we sent cammy home.
and me and my sis realized this....
she has a english inspired looking house...
very english cottage-ish house... very homy feel.... hehe....
the next day!
once again. as teenagers we are.
we cause drama. trouble. for ourselves. hehe.
and the people we know. hehe.
my sister dropped me off at cammy's house and we planned to leave the house at 12.20 or so and we did but because of traffic we got to warisan at like 12.50 and to our horror.... ALL BUSES ARE BOOKED AND TAKEN. ANY INCONVENIENCE CAUSED IS VERY MUCH REGRETTED. i was like: you've got to be kidding?!!!! ????!!
I was about to go bonkers then and there!
Thank god for mich knowing guys older than us who drive! hahahaha!
We managed to get from warisan to one borneo with the driving of Earnest. he was from lok yuk. now he's in unitar. haha. he wants to be a teacher. i bet girls in the school he teaches would just go gaga for him. he's the definite lala typa boy.
We were supposed to watch Twilight together but because of my parents problem and some other bumps along the way.... .They watched it without me...... sigh....... when they left me at dome... the three sympathysing faces looked at me.... gosh i felt sad..... hahahahhaha.....
it was a good two days in a row..... never have my feet felt so sore at all the walking.. hahahhaha!
(thank you mich and cammy!!!!)
just me feeling good...
Joyce
I went out with my mom and my sister charlotte to One Borneo.
had lunch at new york new york.
loved it. great food. great ambiance. great service.
while eating, was text msg-ing mich.
she told me she was coming. i was happy
hehe. we met up at padini.
or rather mich and cammy cornered me in padini.
haha. we did a lil retail therapy.
bought several tops. for christmas and new year. hehe.
we even managed to buy matching tops! hahahah!
Well, after a day shopping,
mich went to find her dad.
we sent cammy home.
and me and my sis realized this....
she has a english inspired looking house...
very english cottage-ish house... very homy feel.... hehe....
the next day!
once again. as teenagers we are.
we cause drama. trouble. for ourselves. hehe.
and the people we know. hehe.
my sister dropped me off at cammy's house and we planned to leave the house at 12.20 or so and we did but because of traffic we got to warisan at like 12.50 and to our horror.... ALL BUSES ARE BOOKED AND TAKEN. ANY INCONVENIENCE CAUSED IS VERY MUCH REGRETTED. i was like: you've got to be kidding?!!!! ????!!
I was about to go bonkers then and there!
Thank god for mich knowing guys older than us who drive! hahahaha!
We managed to get from warisan to one borneo with the driving of Earnest. he was from lok yuk. now he's in unitar. haha. he wants to be a teacher. i bet girls in the school he teaches would just go gaga for him. he's the definite lala typa boy.
We were supposed to watch Twilight together but because of my parents problem and some other bumps along the way.... .They watched it without me...... sigh....... when they left me at dome... the three sympathysing faces looked at me.... gosh i felt sad..... hahahahhaha.....
it was a good two days in a row..... never have my feet felt so sore at all the walking.. hahahhaha!
(thank you mich and cammy!!!!)
just me feeling good...
Joyce
what the hell is that supposed to mean?
Say someone you knew through a mutual friend rolled her eyes at you, directly at you, and you know it coz you guys made eye contact, and we all know eye contact cant go any further than people around you or even the ones you're facing!
Wouldn't you be pissed if you confronted them and all they said was: Really? oh! i didnt even know she was near me?" or what not! i mean do you think we're stupid? do you think we would stoop so low and accuse you of that? yes, people might say that its a petty issue and a egotistical one but it isn't. its more like, i didnt think you of all people would do that to another person who has nothing to do with what went on with me and friends.
I thought you were of higher class. I guess this changes all i knew about you. You're just like all the other midgets around.
just my anger,
Joyce
Wouldn't you be pissed if you confronted them and all they said was: Really? oh! i didnt even know she was near me?" or what not! i mean do you think we're stupid? do you think we would stoop so low and accuse you of that? yes, people might say that its a petty issue and a egotistical one but it isn't. its more like, i didnt think you of all people would do that to another person who has nothing to do with what went on with me and friends.
I thought you were of higher class. I guess this changes all i knew about you. You're just like all the other midgets around.
just my anger,
Joyce
a thought that popped up....
When i saw you the other day, a thought came upon me....
Who are you? Whats so special about you that makes you unique among others?
In fact, you pretty much are doing just the same as any other person your age might do
You're a musician, your studies are mediocre, you're a struggling christian, and the worst part: you smoke....
Why should i care? You obviously dont need my help! You have a girlfriend that smokes and drinks and 'cares' about you!
I laugh at the thought that i would even want to help a vermin like you.
From now on, you are nothing but a vermin. and i pity you at turning into one.
just my anger,
Joyce
Who are you? Whats so special about you that makes you unique among others?
In fact, you pretty much are doing just the same as any other person your age might do
You're a musician, your studies are mediocre, you're a struggling christian, and the worst part: you smoke....
Why should i care? You obviously dont need my help! You have a girlfriend that smokes and drinks and 'cares' about you!
I laugh at the thought that i would even want to help a vermin like you.
From now on, you are nothing but a vermin. and i pity you at turning into one.
just my anger,
Joyce
I watched twilight!
I thought it was great! I think maybe at times the lines were a bit corny but after all it is a love story! I loved the whole movie though! I loved the way Edward has to stay composed and Bella always saying the weirdest things! It was that kinda teen flick that makes us teens go... OooOOOoo.... AaaaAAaaah..... hahahahahhaahhaah!
Next movie i wanna watch......hmm.............. DEFINITELY....... WILD CHILD!!!!!!!
Emma Roberts is so pretty and Alex Pettyfer is so dropdead gorgeous! LOVE ENGLISH BOYS!!!!!
(will include pictures soon!)
hehe,
Joyce
Next movie i wanna watch......hmm.............. DEFINITELY....... WILD CHILD!!!!!!!
Emma Roberts is so pretty and Alex Pettyfer is so dropdead gorgeous! LOVE ENGLISH BOYS!!!!!
(will include pictures soon!)
hehe,
Joyce
Monday, December 1, 2008
TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to watch this movie!!!!! someone take me out to watch this please!!!!!
Mich and I were planning to watch this together because we're both hooked on Robert Pattinson! haha! We were totally enticed after we watched the trailer! haha!
We planned to watch it on monday but because of traffic, curfews and having one paranoid 'parent'.... I didnt manage to watch it...instead they did..... by they i meant ..... Mich, Earnest(i had no idea there was such a name), and Cammy....
i wanna watch it so bad........ aiks..... i liked the book.... read half of it but left it at the bookstore....
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
Mich and I were planning to watch this together because we're both hooked on Robert Pattinson! haha! We were totally enticed after we watched the trailer! haha!
We planned to watch it on monday but because of traffic, curfews and having one paranoid 'parent'.... I didnt manage to watch it...instead they did..... by they i meant ..... Mich, Earnest(i had no idea there was such a name), and Cammy....
i wanna watch it so bad........ aiks..... i liked the book.... read half of it but left it at the bookstore....
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
currently...
I am currently in love with Paramore...
Secondhand Serenade....
Jonas Brothers....
Jordin Sparks...
Hinder.....
David Archuleta.....
David Cook...
Beyonce....
Katy Perry......
Sara Bareilles....
James Blunt....
James Morrison....
Taylor Swift....
Colbie Caillat....
Jason Mraz.....
Fire Flight....
One Republic....
Lady Gaga....
Colby O'Donis....
Copeland.....
I like almost every genre of music..... rock, pop, RnB, country, ballads.......
I think what i hate most about some people is that they claim their so in love this band or a singer or something and then two weeks later their like: I cant believe i liked them! Their so terrible!
I know they might have changed or something but the worse thing that they could say is that particular artist is bad or terrible! I mean if you were another artist and known internationally I wouldnt mind but HHHEEEELLLOOOO, who are you to curse them or critsize them if you're a total nobody who just goes to singing classes and thinks you're all that!?
I love music.... and I am proud to say the singers i liked when i was a kid i still like them now! You may say i'm still an ammature and I'm not grown up enough but unless you're a eighty year old man then you have no right to tell me i'm not old enough!
I know I sound pissed.... I'm not.....
Just expressing my opinions.....
And yes.... I do like some disney stars... their not bad....
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
Secondhand Serenade....
Jonas Brothers....
Jordin Sparks...
Hinder.....
David Archuleta.....
David Cook...
Beyonce....
Katy Perry......
Sara Bareilles....
James Blunt....
James Morrison....
Taylor Swift....
Colbie Caillat....
Jason Mraz.....
Fire Flight....
One Republic....
Lady Gaga....
Colby O'Donis....
Copeland.....
I like almost every genre of music..... rock, pop, RnB, country, ballads.......
I think what i hate most about some people is that they claim their so in love this band or a singer or something and then two weeks later their like: I cant believe i liked them! Their so terrible!
I know they might have changed or something but the worse thing that they could say is that particular artist is bad or terrible! I mean if you were another artist and known internationally I wouldnt mind but HHHEEEELLLOOOO, who are you to curse them or critsize them if you're a total nobody who just goes to singing classes and thinks you're all that!?
I love music.... and I am proud to say the singers i liked when i was a kid i still like them now! You may say i'm still an ammature and I'm not grown up enough but unless you're a eighty year old man then you have no right to tell me i'm not old enough!
I know I sound pissed.... I'm not.....
Just expressing my opinions.....
And yes.... I do like some disney stars... their not bad....
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
I went to a book fair..
I went to the Times book fair in Asia City. I was invited to go by Wen Yiing or Alexis. I bought three books.
One's called: Kiss me once, kiss me twice. will give a simple synopsys when i'm done reading it.
Second one called: Pretty committee strikes back. Its about a bunch of girls my age trying to get dates, date boys, juggle their problems, puberty and learn the ways of life.
Third one is..... i forgot.... i left the books in the bag still... hehe.....
I realized there are plenty of books that i really want to buy but are a little out of the world priced.
I also found out i am not exactly a spendthrift. I do save money and not spend so much but i do tend to splurge a bit once in a while.
aiks,
Joyce
One's called: Kiss me once, kiss me twice. will give a simple synopsys when i'm done reading it.
Second one called: Pretty committee strikes back. Its about a bunch of girls my age trying to get dates, date boys, juggle their problems, puberty and learn the ways of life.
Third one is..... i forgot.... i left the books in the bag still... hehe.....
I realized there are plenty of books that i really want to buy but are a little out of the world priced.
I also found out i am not exactly a spendthrift. I do save money and not spend so much but i do tend to splurge a bit once in a while.
aiks,
Joyce
Monday, November 17, 2008
This holiday...
This holiday has been a blast!!! NOT!!!!!!!!
All i do is study, do chores, stay in the office!
I rarely get to go out!
argh.........
I really want december to come fast and past slow.........
is that even possible and is that too much to ask?
argh......
i want to go somewhere...
to do anything fun........
angry rants,
Joyce
All i do is study, do chores, stay in the office!
I rarely get to go out!
argh.........
I really want december to come fast and past slow.........
is that even possible and is that too much to ask?
argh......
i want to go somewhere...
to do anything fun........
angry rants,
Joyce
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Free falling or free flying...
school's over!!! finally!!! I feel happy, excited and absolutely hyped for no reason!!! hahahahahahahaahahahahaa!!!
Everyone in school is going absolutely bonkers!!! for the past four days, we constantly have water fights and glitter bashes!!! i managed to avoid the glitter the first few times but the last day, i came home looking like a christmas tree!!! except i was a lil wet! I was wet, cold, and shiny!! hahahahahahaha!
Its really sad because this might be the last time all of us as a group are in one class! We took loadsa pics! We were all a bit dramatic as usual! haha!
this year was such a blast! We all had our ups and downs and we all went through them with friends as our support! this year is an absolute memory i will never forget!
LOL,
Joyce
Everyone in school is going absolutely bonkers!!! for the past four days, we constantly have water fights and glitter bashes!!! i managed to avoid the glitter the first few times but the last day, i came home looking like a christmas tree!!! except i was a lil wet! I was wet, cold, and shiny!! hahahahahahaha!
Its really sad because this might be the last time all of us as a group are in one class! We took loadsa pics! We were all a bit dramatic as usual! haha!
this year was such a blast! We all had our ups and downs and we all went through them with friends as our support! this year is an absolute memory i will never forget!
LOL,
Joyce
Monday, November 3, 2008
A short trip but a great one...
I went to kl recently for my grandpa's 80 birthday! It was wedged right in between my small exams... no worries though...
i bought a dress and all and was a bit jittery about wearing it and looking all girly and totally not me.... i arrived with dad at sentral and we waited at usual for my darling sisters to pick us up and as usual they were late! they sped right by us and we ended up having quite a spat about it!
we actually had gpa's house all to ourselves because gpa was at my aunt emei's house for the night and no one else was there except us!
Before they arrived, something really funny and shocking happened, this similar looking Honda city came in front and parked right in front of us so we conveniently thought it was my sister caused the woman driving looked exactly like my sister! we tried opening the door but she was locking the door! she was waving to the guy walking towards us and we realized: oh no! this isn't our car so we said our sorry's and quickly left! We felt so embarrassed!
We had the party at Ming's Cuisine. Its somewhere near Seapark there... We had some of gpa's church friends, relatives and all! All in all about sixty people. I wore a dress from my sister cause my mom forgot to take mine and i depended on her too much for it! It was a black dress with a pink tube so we matched it with a pink hairband and i wore my contacts much to my sisters surprise (she thought i didnt have contacts! LOL) , i even bought some ballet pumps that matched the dress! well, kinda..
It was lotsa fun... my cousin brother Ju-Hann gave a speech on behalf of all grand-children, it was a good speech, people were laughing and smiling in amusement of our cheers, whistling and shouts! My cousin brother Tzun Leon also gave a speech in behalf of his brother or my other cousing Johnson in UK studying and working! He has dentures in because he had a lil motorcycle accident! And guess which two tooths? HIS FRONT TWO~~~!!!! sad rite... i know....
I went to church the next day as well! It was all fun and great! I got to see a couple of my old friends! I even got a lil wet from Ce Su-Anne's youth camp fund raiser! I really hope i can make it back this time for youth camp!
My grandma's doing much better now! She walks, laughs, scolds! She's pretty much back to her old self already!
I'm glad I went.. I hope I'll go back for the camp as well...
HEHE,
Joyce
i bought a dress and all and was a bit jittery about wearing it and looking all girly and totally not me.... i arrived with dad at sentral and we waited at usual for my darling sisters to pick us up and as usual they were late! they sped right by us and we ended up having quite a spat about it!
we actually had gpa's house all to ourselves because gpa was at my aunt emei's house for the night and no one else was there except us!
Before they arrived, something really funny and shocking happened, this similar looking Honda city came in front and parked right in front of us so we conveniently thought it was my sister caused the woman driving looked exactly like my sister! we tried opening the door but she was locking the door! she was waving to the guy walking towards us and we realized: oh no! this isn't our car so we said our sorry's and quickly left! We felt so embarrassed!
We had the party at Ming's Cuisine. Its somewhere near Seapark there... We had some of gpa's church friends, relatives and all! All in all about sixty people. I wore a dress from my sister cause my mom forgot to take mine and i depended on her too much for it! It was a black dress with a pink tube so we matched it with a pink hairband and i wore my contacts much to my sisters surprise (she thought i didnt have contacts! LOL) , i even bought some ballet pumps that matched the dress! well, kinda..
It was lotsa fun... my cousin brother Ju-Hann gave a speech on behalf of all grand-children, it was a good speech, people were laughing and smiling in amusement of our cheers, whistling and shouts! My cousin brother Tzun Leon also gave a speech in behalf of his brother or my other cousing Johnson in UK studying and working! He has dentures in because he had a lil motorcycle accident! And guess which two tooths? HIS FRONT TWO~~~!!!! sad rite... i know....
I went to church the next day as well! It was all fun and great! I got to see a couple of my old friends! I even got a lil wet from Ce Su-Anne's youth camp fund raiser! I really hope i can make it back this time for youth camp!
My grandma's doing much better now! She walks, laughs, scolds! She's pretty much back to her old self already!
I'm glad I went.. I hope I'll go back for the camp as well...
HEHE,
Joyce
Monday, October 27, 2008
too long too fast...
I have not blogged for abt 2 weeks...
so sorry abt that...
my life is kinda messed up now...
i dont know what to do..
where to go....
what to fix...
how to fix it....
when to fix it...
why did it break...
how did it break....
and why the sound of it breaking is worse then any other sound you've ever heard...
and why the silence after it slices my heart like a deep papercut....
why does it happen...
is this a phase?
will it go away...
i hope it does....
i want to better...
not what i am now...
i wanna go forward not backward...
someone tell me how.....
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
so sorry abt that...
my life is kinda messed up now...
i dont know what to do..
where to go....
what to fix...
how to fix it....
when to fix it...
why did it break...
how did it break....
and why the sound of it breaking is worse then any other sound you've ever heard...
and why the silence after it slices my heart like a deep papercut....
why does it happen...
is this a phase?
will it go away...
i hope it does....
i want to better...
not what i am now...
i wanna go forward not backward...
someone tell me how.....
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Cheesy me.....
I like cheesy movies... dramas... series....
I like the love triangles between the hot guy, the best friend and the girl...
I like the fights and how they look at each other, trying to trust one another but end up drifting away from one another....
I like how they always either have a really teary eyed ending or a really happy ending...
I like how the mother or mother in law is a total B****...
I watched Another Cinderella Story.... It was good... not super good but nice.... Selena Gomez and Drew Seeley... Some of you might go: who?.... don't worry! .... i haven't heard of the guy since this month and i haven't heard of the girl till 3 months ago...
I like Cheesy shows...
hehe,
Joyce
I like the love triangles between the hot guy, the best friend and the girl...
I like the fights and how they look at each other, trying to trust one another but end up drifting away from one another....
I like how they always either have a really teary eyed ending or a really happy ending...
I like how the mother or mother in law is a total B****...
I watched Another Cinderella Story.... It was good... not super good but nice.... Selena Gomez and Drew Seeley... Some of you might go: who?.... don't worry! .... i haven't heard of the guy since this month and i haven't heard of the girl till 3 months ago...
I like Cheesy shows...
hehe,
Joyce
Monday, October 13, 2008
I had a great day.......
13th October, 2008
The most fun day I've had since recently....
I had badminton in the morning from 9.45-11.45...
Then i went with Xiao Wei and Davina for food...
then we went to her house to change and just as we were leaving for Waterworld
(~ which I had no idea where it was located till yesterday~)
THE POURING RAIN MADE US WAIT FOR TWO HOURS!!!!!!
so for two hours, we chatted, sang, watched some chinese drama called: Destined, to love you!
~quite nice actually! your typical love triangles and some drama but quite sad lo!~
Then it finally stopped raining!!!!
HAAH!!!!!! We arrived and saw our long lost friends Leonie Lim!!!!! still the same old her!!! hahahahaahah!
We played and laughed and had loadsa fun!!!!
but then all fun has to end some time!
so when it was Leonie's time to leave we got a lil sad but it was all okay!
Then, Davina an I realized something!.......
WE FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh.... i guess that means we get to call her out again! hahahahahaa
I went home, tired but still hyper!
My hair is pretty dry and coarse because of the pool water! ( aiks!)
hahaha..
but all in all, i'm glad i went out with them!
but this trip out i definitely learnt that arranging transport there and back is really important!
Thanks for the trip, people!!!!!!!!!
Hehe,
Joyce
The most fun day I've had since recently....
I had badminton in the morning from 9.45-11.45...
Then i went with Xiao Wei and Davina for food...
then we went to her house to change and just as we were leaving for Waterworld
(~ which I had no idea where it was located till yesterday~)
THE POURING RAIN MADE US WAIT FOR TWO HOURS!!!!!!
so for two hours, we chatted, sang, watched some chinese drama called: Destined, to love you!
~quite nice actually! your typical love triangles and some drama but quite sad lo!~
Then it finally stopped raining!!!!
HAAH!!!!!! We arrived and saw our long lost friends Leonie Lim!!!!! still the same old her!!! hahahahaahah!
We played and laughed and had loadsa fun!!!!
but then all fun has to end some time!
so when it was Leonie's time to leave we got a lil sad but it was all okay!
Then, Davina an I realized something!.......
WE FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh.... i guess that means we get to call her out again! hahahahahaa
I went home, tired but still hyper!
My hair is pretty dry and coarse because of the pool water! ( aiks!)
hahaha..
but all in all, i'm glad i went out with them!
but this trip out i definitely learnt that arranging transport there and back is really important!
Thanks for the trip, people!!!!!!!!!
Hehe,
Joyce
Saturday, October 11, 2008
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!
I'M FREE!!!!!!!
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!! ( well, the important ones i mean!)
I'm so relieved i could cry!!!!! Well, i did! hahaha!~!!!!!
I can do anything i want now!!!!
I can shop, laze, watch TV, use the comp and have fun without worrying about not studying!!!
I know its temporary but I want to use to its max!!!!!
HAHAHAAHAHA!!!!!
I'm so happy, can you tell?
Hehehaha,
Joyce
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!! ( well, the important ones i mean!)
I'm so relieved i could cry!!!!! Well, i did! hahaha!~!!!!!
I can do anything i want now!!!!
I can shop, laze, watch TV, use the comp and have fun without worrying about not studying!!!
I know its temporary but I want to use to its max!!!!!
HAHAHAAHAHA!!!!!
I'm so happy, can you tell?
Hehehaha,
Joyce
Thursday, October 9, 2008
been drifting in and out of life....
I've been couped up in studies so badly thats i'm glad its gonna be over by friday...
I really hope I get First place in class.....
I really studied and really focused on my goals......
I may have been distracted by the stupid tv drama's and the stupid comp but i managed to control and convince myself that i get to use these very nice things after my exam.........
I just hope I get what I worked for.....
I really hope so..........
Aiks,
Joyce
I really hope I get First place in class.....
I really studied and really focused on my goals......
I may have been distracted by the stupid tv drama's and the stupid comp but i managed to control and convince myself that i get to use these very nice things after my exam.........
I just hope I get what I worked for.....
I really hope so..........
Aiks,
Joyce
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
This really stupid/crazy video..........
For all those girls who really want guys to know how hard working we have to be to please them please make them watch this video!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTC4qkb8Ppk&feature=user
aiks,
Joyce
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTC4qkb8Ppk&feature=user
aiks,
Joyce
Monday, September 29, 2008
My most boring holiday ever..........
Gosh....
All i did this past few days was.....
Use the comp.....
Study my school subjects......
Watch TV.........
Listen to all my favorite songs.........
Shop for groceries........
Play with my dog...........
Do some work for my mom.......
and the daily needs la e.g: eat, sleep, talk, laugh, exercise.........
aiks,
Joyce
All i did this past few days was.....
Use the comp.....
Study my school subjects......
Watch TV.........
Listen to all my favorite songs.........
Shop for groceries........
Play with my dog...........
Do some work for my mom.......
and the daily needs la e.g: eat, sleep, talk, laugh, exercise.........
aiks,
Joyce
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Whats the actual problem?
What is the problem?
Why can't you just tell me instead of just keeping quiet and being all awkward?
Why can't you just get off that high horse of yours and deal with the problem now?
Why won't you deal with me?
Are you scared of the consequences?
Are you scared you're gonna lose me as a friend?
Would you rather have me wondering and not knowing than actually fixing it?
Don't give me that excuse!
You know what the problem is but you're just ignoring it
I don't believe in the saying Time will heal it....
In medicine, maybe it works
But social problems, no it doesnt work
Not all the time anyway....
I'm not asking the question this time....
thoughts and rants.
Joyce
Why can't you just tell me instead of just keeping quiet and being all awkward?
Why can't you just get off that high horse of yours and deal with the problem now?
Why won't you deal with me?
Are you scared of the consequences?
Are you scared you're gonna lose me as a friend?
Would you rather have me wondering and not knowing than actually fixing it?
Don't give me that excuse!
You know what the problem is but you're just ignoring it
I don't believe in the saying Time will heal it....
In medicine, maybe it works
But social problems, no it doesnt work
Not all the time anyway....
I'm not asking the question this time....
thoughts and rants.
Joyce
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I think..............
I think i'm going through the stage of isolation from everyone..........
I currently like to stay silent, listen to music, study, read books and only talk to several selected friends...............
Don't ask me why..........
I have no idea as well...........
I know i sound like a total geek but yeah............
its happening.................
and all of a sudden 95% of my friends are idiots in my mind......
for no reason..........
maybe i'm not thinking properly......
or rather i'm thinking too harshly or mean...........
and another part of my circle is too serious and naive.........
they think that the world only works in their favor..........
sigh...............
God help me............
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
I currently like to stay silent, listen to music, study, read books and only talk to several selected friends...............
Don't ask me why..........
I have no idea as well...........
I know i sound like a total geek but yeah............
its happening.................
and all of a sudden 95% of my friends are idiots in my mind......
for no reason..........
maybe i'm not thinking properly......
or rather i'm thinking too harshly or mean...........
and another part of my circle is too serious and naive.........
they think that the world only works in their favor..........
sigh...............
God help me............
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Friday, September 26, 2008
Talking through the mic with leonie lim....
I was online on MSN when the sound: ding ding.
IT was Leonie Lim. This girl was in my school but she moved to bahang. Closer to her home.
We decided to talk through the mic coz we got tired of typing.
My mic has some problems.
I think maybe it doesnt like me.
Sighs.
Leonie is Fun. Funny. Pretty. Can sing.
PLUS SHE'S A GREAT FRIEND~!!!!!!
hehe,
Joyce
IT was Leonie Lim. This girl was in my school but she moved to bahang. Closer to her home.
We decided to talk through the mic coz we got tired of typing.
My mic has some problems.
I think maybe it doesnt like me.
Sighs.
Leonie is Fun. Funny. Pretty. Can sing.
PLUS SHE'S A GREAT FRIEND~!!!!!!
hehe,
Joyce
when you're mean, i'm mean too...
I hate it when people keep sighing and their being all cranky, and its just one word that as if it fixes everything: PUASA!
And then there are those that act all cute but deep down their just guilty after doing things that are wrong towards you!
Now, that i'm mean to her she acts all sorry and soft and ''cute'', before this, she was loud, bossy, and mean!
Now, she wants to be my friend!
Now, she can't wait to get on my good side!
Gosh, some people are such losers!
If I were half as mean as my sisters can be, She would have gone and hid under car!
I hate it when people betray me!
Especially after you warn them!
Betray me and you will feel my wrath of fury!
Now, you sit alone in class and eat alone at recess!
HA HA! What a pathetic sight!
That's the price you pay for betraying me!
I'm mean,
Joyce
And then there are those that act all cute but deep down their just guilty after doing things that are wrong towards you!
Now, that i'm mean to her she acts all sorry and soft and ''cute'', before this, she was loud, bossy, and mean!
Now, she wants to be my friend!
Now, she can't wait to get on my good side!
Gosh, some people are such losers!
If I were half as mean as my sisters can be, She would have gone and hid under car!
I hate it when people betray me!
Especially after you warn them!
Betray me and you will feel my wrath of fury!
Now, you sit alone in class and eat alone at recess!
HA HA! What a pathetic sight!
That's the price you pay for betraying me!
I'm mean,
Joyce
Monday, September 22, 2008
Pretending to be someone you're not....
Do you know how frustrating it is when you act like someone else?
Tell them you're name is this but its actually that?
If you just plan to scare them, then do it a while and then give it up after maybe five text messages..
If you plan to date that person, then please tell them the truth or you'll end with the break up within a day or two... .
Pretending to be within the clique is even harder...
When you don't fit, then why bother turning into someone else....
Just be yourself......
And even if you want to be like them, you can, but don't turn into them totally!
Why lie and say oh, i like that too, when the truth is you really don't like it!
WHY?
And when people find out, the person at loss is yourself!
People will label you a Fake or Liar! And people like me will not be very happy with you.
Aiks,
Joyce
Tell them you're name is this but its actually that?
If you just plan to scare them, then do it a while and then give it up after maybe five text messages..
If you plan to date that person, then please tell them the truth or you'll end with the break up within a day or two... .
Pretending to be within the clique is even harder...
When you don't fit, then why bother turning into someone else....
Just be yourself......
And even if you want to be like them, you can, but don't turn into them totally!
Why lie and say oh, i like that too, when the truth is you really don't like it!
Why lie to be someone you're not?
WHY?
And when people find out, the person at loss is yourself!
People will label you a Fake or Liar! And people like me will not be very happy with you.
Aiks,
Joyce
Sunday, September 21, 2008
pick your parties well...
I learnt from my lesson...........
Don't go to a party just cause that person has been a friend of yours for a long time...
Don't go just because...
I learnt that....
going to a party that is organized by a messy person will only result as you wasting your time and money going....
doing nothing, hanging around, not deciding on what to do is a waste of time!
I got to hang out with michelle markus though.....
She's ok.... Petite, Pretty, typical chinese though she isnt one...
Aiks..... wasted a beautiful sunday..........
Aiks,
Joyce
Don't go to a party just cause that person has been a friend of yours for a long time...
Don't go just because...
I learnt that....
going to a party that is organized by a messy person will only result as you wasting your time and money going....
doing nothing, hanging around, not deciding on what to do is a waste of time!
I got to hang out with michelle markus though.....
She's ok.... Petite, Pretty, typical chinese though she isnt one...
Aiks..... wasted a beautiful sunday..........
Aiks,
Joyce
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Going Crazy.......
The pressure is on to score in my finals......
I must ignore all dramas going on around me.....
Must not get all touchy on issues...
Must focus on studies....
Don't care if someone makes a racist comment even about your unracist joke....
Don't care...
They can die for all I care.....
Aiks...
Joyce
I must ignore all dramas going on around me.....
Must not get all touchy on issues...
Must focus on studies....
Don't care if someone makes a racist comment even about your unracist joke....
Don't care...
They can die for all I care.....
Aiks...
Joyce
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Eleven days away....
I know i should be studying like crazy for my exams but i'm not really studying...
I study for an hour everyday...
by study, it doesn't mean doing my homework, it means studying la~!
Somehow, i feel guilty...
like I'm lying to people...
but i'm not....
i do study....
but i guess just not enough....
aiks,
Joyce
I study for an hour everyday...
by study, it doesn't mean doing my homework, it means studying la~!
Somehow, i feel guilty...
like I'm lying to people...
but i'm not....
i do study....
but i guess just not enough....
aiks,
Joyce
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Its over...
Its over!
The cold, awkward, silent war is over!!!
Finally, someone speaks up!
I just hope the peace will continue on!!!
HAHA,
Joyce
The cold, awkward, silent war is over!!!
Finally, someone speaks up!
I just hope the peace will continue on!!!
HAHA,
Joyce
Thursday, September 11, 2008
TV!!!!
I love watching tv!
Its wrong that i watch two hours of TV a day!
And i only study an hour or so!
but its so nice to watch tv especially if its GossipGirl or Lipstick Jungle!
You get high from watching all the drama, the trouble, the hot guys and girls!
hahah! my obsession! hahahha!
crazy times,
Joyce
Its wrong that i watch two hours of TV a day!
And i only study an hour or so!
but its so nice to watch tv especially if its GossipGirl or Lipstick Jungle!
You get high from watching all the drama, the trouble, the hot guys and girls!
hahah! my obsession! hahahha!
crazy times,
Joyce
funny....
Its funny now that my two friends aren't talking to each other.
I feel like I'm the divider in between two highways.
Mich, Chinese, tall, pretty, likable.
Lia, Malay, short, curvy, likable.
And its such coincidence that they both say the same things about each other.
She's so self absorbed,
She doesn't even want to talk to me,
She's so cold,
She's so Malay already,
She's so Chinese already,
She likes them better already,
She just drifted away from me i guess,
I don't want to lose her as a friend but i don't think she wants me,
I don't need her if she doesn't need me!
Lia and Mich have been friends for how long? Five years? or Six?
Its not my turn to say anything but then again just for you guys!
Kiss and make up or hold your tongue till the end of time!
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
I feel like I'm the divider in between two highways.
Mich, Chinese, tall, pretty, likable.
Lia, Malay, short, curvy, likable.
And its such coincidence that they both say the same things about each other.
She's so self absorbed,
She doesn't even want to talk to me,
She's so cold,
She's so Malay already,
She's so Chinese already,
She likes them better already,
She just drifted away from me i guess,
I don't want to lose her as a friend but i don't think she wants me,
I don't need her if she doesn't need me!
Lia and Mich have been friends for how long? Five years? or Six?
Its not my turn to say anything but then again just for you guys!
Kiss and make up or hold your tongue till the end of time!
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Why do we have to be that way?
Why do we have to be this way?
Why is it we have to take the hit every time someone else screws up?
Why is it we hear rumors and believe it sometimes?
Why is it we start rumors about others so we feel better?
Why is it we like to discriminate others?
Why is it we tend to make things hard for others who are different than we are?
Why is it so hard to be different than others?
Why is it we like to pull the weak ones down?
Why is it when someone tells you this but they mean that and you're confused but in the end you still get hit by them?
Why is it when you like someone else you tell me?
Why is it that it hurts when you tell me so?
Why is it that my life is filled with drama?
Why is it that when something i want and am working for is laid right in front of me i tend to give it away by accident?
Why haven't learnt to grasp opportunities like everyone else my age?
Why is it that I'm so straight forward that i'm mean?
Why is it I'm rude?
Why is it I'm racist?
I take the hit because everyone thinks I'm indestructible.
But just to let you know, I'm human too!
And just like everyone else my age, we are mean but i guess that's the only way to survive high school without being laughed and squished.
And yes, I hate it when someone tells me its this but means that! I hate it! Is it so hard to tell someone directly what you mean?
Ever heard the line: survival of the fittest? If you haven't, then i'm sorry for your shallow knowledge! but that's one of the lines i survive by. If you're weak, people will either push you away or out.
I just need time to learn the trick into catching opportunities. just give me time.
I am straight forward.
You can call me mean, rude, or racist. But just to be clear, the whole country could be racist! Racism: e.g: chinese hating malay or stuff like that.
WAKE UP ALREADY! everyone likes to think that their race is better than others! Its just the way we are! Everyone is a lil racist. and when you start to break your bridges with others just because of their race or lil things, then just to let you know, you're losing your social status as a friend for others to see.
The bottom line is I'd rather be straight forward and be called rude or mean than be called a liar or a back stabbing bitch!
Thoughts and shouts,
Why is it we have to take the hit every time someone else screws up?
Why is it we hear rumors and believe it sometimes?
Why is it we start rumors about others so we feel better?
Why is it we like to discriminate others?
Why is it we tend to make things hard for others who are different than we are?
Why is it so hard to be different than others?
Why is it we like to pull the weak ones down?
Why is it when someone tells you this but they mean that and you're confused but in the end you still get hit by them?
Why is it when you like someone else you tell me?
Why is it that it hurts when you tell me so?
Why is it that my life is filled with drama?
Why is it that when something i want and am working for is laid right in front of me i tend to give it away by accident?
Why haven't learnt to grasp opportunities like everyone else my age?
Why is it that I'm so straight forward that i'm mean?
Why is it I'm rude?
Why is it I'm racist?
I take the hit because everyone thinks I'm indestructible.
But just to let you know, I'm human too!
And just like everyone else my age, we are mean but i guess that's the only way to survive high school without being laughed and squished.
And yes, I hate it when someone tells me its this but means that! I hate it! Is it so hard to tell someone directly what you mean?
Ever heard the line: survival of the fittest? If you haven't, then i'm sorry for your shallow knowledge! but that's one of the lines i survive by. If you're weak, people will either push you away or out.
I just need time to learn the trick into catching opportunities. just give me time.
I am straight forward.
You can call me mean, rude, or racist. But just to be clear, the whole country could be racist! Racism: e.g: chinese hating malay or stuff like that.
WAKE UP ALREADY! everyone likes to think that their race is better than others! Its just the way we are! Everyone is a lil racist. and when you start to break your bridges with others just because of their race or lil things, then just to let you know, you're losing your social status as a friend for others to see.
The bottom line is I'd rather be straight forward and be called rude or mean than be called a liar or a back stabbing bitch!
Thoughts and shouts,
Joyce
Friday, September 5, 2008
SPEAK UP *****!
the biggest problem in society today is not having enough guts to speak their mind or what they think should be done!
i know i might be a hypocrite in this sense but i think not speaking your mind and keeping it in and then when someone says it then only do you jump on the boat and say: yeah i was thinking that too!
LIKE: YOU COULDN'T HAVE SAID IT EARLIER!?
I feel like people always need the push to speak! as if they have glue stuck on their lips and tearing it open will allow them to speak!
not speaking up on a problem with a friend will only push you further away!
keeping quiet and letting it unfold will take too long and maybe if its too slow you've lost a friend!
wake up people!
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
i know i might be a hypocrite in this sense but i think not speaking your mind and keeping it in and then when someone says it then only do you jump on the boat and say: yeah i was thinking that too!
LIKE: YOU COULDN'T HAVE SAID IT EARLIER!?
I feel like people always need the push to speak! as if they have glue stuck on their lips and tearing it open will allow them to speak!
not speaking up on a problem with a friend will only push you further away!
keeping quiet and letting it unfold will take too long and maybe if its too slow you've lost a friend!
wake up people!
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
the opportunities i let slip past me...
I am clumsy....
I am not a very keen opportunist....
I let the guy i like fall for my best friend TWICE....
I let the teacher who trusted me have doubts in my work...
I let my friends think I am hard and cold....
Is there a way for me to turn these things around?
thoughts,
Joyce
I am not a very keen opportunist....
I let the guy i like fall for my best friend TWICE....
I let the teacher who trusted me have doubts in my work...
I let my friends think I am hard and cold....
Is there a way for me to turn these things around?
thoughts,
Joyce
Monday, September 1, 2008
A crazy day!!! hahaha!
Saturday, 30th August 2008.
I woke up at nine. I had to go to the stadium to watch this Karate competition. There were loads of foreigners competing, Kazakhstan, Taipei, Saudi Arabia, Japan, Kuwait, Malaysia(duh), etc.
They were absolutely all out fierce and determined to kill one another. The fiercest were the Taipei fighters and Saudi Arabians. Fu-Yoh! I was so amazed by their sudden moves and attacks! My friends and I were like gasping all the way from start to finish! Aiks...
Went home at about 11.45 or twelve. Ate lunch. Did my house chores. Homework. Watched my TV. Slept. Cleaned my room. Read a book. You know me... i laze.... hehehe.....
At 7.45pm or so, me and my sister went out, i felt sorry for leaving my mom at home but then again she was busy watching her Korean drama series which is actually nice but a lil too much drama for me though.... We went to popular in center point, to be specific, Palm square.... I bought myself a couple of books to study for finals... as you know i am lazy so i need to kill it off and study.... well, i'll try!
So then my sister caught up with her friends and decided to meet them at the cinema at 9 or so. Since we had an hour and both of us have not eaten lunch, we went to fish and co for dinner! I ordered my usual and their best! Fish and chips! Fattening i know but i guess its comfort food! And my ce(sister) ordered her caesar salad with calamari which are absolutely to die for!
But here is my main point in this story!
As we were about to leave, here came this old man or rather con man!
He said he was a fortune teller! I was like yeah and i'm the minister of this country!
but for some odd reason, my usual GO TO HELL LA YOU sister was like, i dunno, slow or a lil stupid and let him sit at our table and tell her fortune!
I was like: WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!??!!!
He held her palm and started telling her her 'future'! He said she is kind, has a soft personality, will have a good husband, two children, one good and one bad, will have a million bucks when she is married, she has good parents and they work as clerks and just have enough to use and other shit like that la!
First of all, my parents have not been clerks since about 20-25 years ago! They both own companies of their own! And my sister has good results not average like the guy said!
Then after when he was done, he asked for ten bucks and my sister gave it to him!
I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN IN TO YOU! HE IS A CON MAN! A FREAKIN LIAR!
I could not believe my eyes when she handed the note over to him! I was stunned! Shocked! In disbelief!
To all those reading, please say no out loud or shake your head really hard if you ever come across such cheaters!
Ok, so then we watched this singaporean/malaysian movie called : money not enough 2!
it is freakin funny la! Its funny but has a morale behind all the stupidity!
I came home at two thirty in the mornin and my mom wasn't happy about but i made her happy by buying her cakes from secret recipe! ahhahahaha!
The way to a womans heart is through her stomach!
Haha,
Joyce
I woke up at nine. I had to go to the stadium to watch this Karate competition. There were loads of foreigners competing, Kazakhstan, Taipei, Saudi Arabia, Japan, Kuwait, Malaysia(duh), etc.
They were absolutely all out fierce and determined to kill one another. The fiercest were the Taipei fighters and Saudi Arabians. Fu-Yoh! I was so amazed by their sudden moves and attacks! My friends and I were like gasping all the way from start to finish! Aiks...
Went home at about 11.45 or twelve. Ate lunch. Did my house chores. Homework. Watched my TV. Slept. Cleaned my room. Read a book. You know me... i laze.... hehehe.....
At 7.45pm or so, me and my sister went out, i felt sorry for leaving my mom at home but then again she was busy watching her Korean drama series which is actually nice but a lil too much drama for me though.... We went to popular in center point, to be specific, Palm square.... I bought myself a couple of books to study for finals... as you know i am lazy so i need to kill it off and study.... well, i'll try!
So then my sister caught up with her friends and decided to meet them at the cinema at 9 or so. Since we had an hour and both of us have not eaten lunch, we went to fish and co for dinner! I ordered my usual and their best! Fish and chips! Fattening i know but i guess its comfort food! And my ce(sister) ordered her caesar salad with calamari which are absolutely to die for!
But here is my main point in this story!
As we were about to leave, here came this old man or rather con man!
He said he was a fortune teller! I was like yeah and i'm the minister of this country!
but for some odd reason, my usual GO TO HELL LA YOU sister was like, i dunno, slow or a lil stupid and let him sit at our table and tell her fortune!
I was like: WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!??!!!
He held her palm and started telling her her 'future'! He said she is kind, has a soft personality, will have a good husband, two children, one good and one bad, will have a million bucks when she is married, she has good parents and they work as clerks and just have enough to use and other shit like that la!
First of all, my parents have not been clerks since about 20-25 years ago! They both own companies of their own! And my sister has good results not average like the guy said!
Then after when he was done, he asked for ten bucks and my sister gave it to him!
I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN IN TO YOU! HE IS A CON MAN! A FREAKIN LIAR!
I could not believe my eyes when she handed the note over to him! I was stunned! Shocked! In disbelief!
To all those reading, please say no out loud or shake your head really hard if you ever come across such cheaters!
Ok, so then we watched this singaporean/malaysian movie called : money not enough 2!
it is freakin funny la! Its funny but has a morale behind all the stupidity!
I came home at two thirty in the mornin and my mom wasn't happy about but i made her happy by buying her cakes from secret recipe! ahhahahaha!
The way to a womans heart is through her stomach!
Haha,
Joyce
Friday, August 29, 2008
Middle Mania...
I am caught in the middle....
This is no new experience....
Its been happening from the moment i was born......
I have sisters who fight and they come to me, as if i can pick between them!
I have parents who fight and as if i'll bother to choose!
I have friends who fight too!
THE TRUTH IS : CHOOSING BETWEEN THEM WILL HURT ONE OR THE OTHER AND IT HURTS THE ONE WHO CHOOSES AS WELL!
Can't you people see that when you ask the person to choose you're putting him/her on the plank to either death or torture!?
I hope you understand that me being the middle person is nerve wracking cause choosing and not choosing is also a problem!
sigh.....
thoughts and complaints,
Joyce
This is no new experience....
Its been happening from the moment i was born......
I have sisters who fight and they come to me, as if i can pick between them!
I have parents who fight and as if i'll bother to choose!
I have friends who fight too!
THE TRUTH IS : CHOOSING BETWEEN THEM WILL HURT ONE OR THE OTHER AND IT HURTS THE ONE WHO CHOOSES AS WELL!
Can't you people see that when you ask the person to choose you're putting him/her on the plank to either death or torture!?
I hope you understand that me being the middle person is nerve wracking cause choosing and not choosing is also a problem!
sigh.....
thoughts and complaints,
Joyce
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
People say...
People say i am crazy....
People say i am a people pleaser...
People say i am generous....
People say i am smart....
People say i am fat...
People say i am tall....
People say i am too nice...
People say i give in to others too much...
People say i am a push over...
People say i am a leader...
People say I am a cina sesat due to the fact i don't like chinese...
People say i don't look like my sisters...
People say i am spoilt...
Sometimes people say stupid things... Sometimes even false accusations about me and my personality... I am a leader, it is in my blood that i like to lead.... I am a bit of a cina sesat... I don't look like my sisters... I am slightly crazy... I am generous when i have extra cash to give.... i am a people pleaser, why make them angry for a lil thing?.... I am smart when all the other people are stupid... I am tall when others are short.... I am fat when others are thin...
BUT I WANT TO MAKE A FEW THINGS CLEAR!
I AM NOT A PUSH OVER!
I AM NOT SPOILT!
AND NO ONE IS EVER TOO NICE!!!!!
I am who I am and no one else.
Don't judge me. or I'll judge you. and the outcome isn't pretty.
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
this is what happens when I'm bored and I start to think about previous comments about me.
People say i am a people pleaser...
People say i am generous....
People say i am smart....
People say i am fat...
People say i am tall....
People say i am too nice...
People say i give in to others too much...
People say i am a push over...
People say i am a leader...
People say I am a cina sesat due to the fact i don't like chinese...
People say i don't look like my sisters...
People say i am spoilt...
Sometimes people say stupid things... Sometimes even false accusations about me and my personality... I am a leader, it is in my blood that i like to lead.... I am a bit of a cina sesat... I don't look like my sisters... I am slightly crazy... I am generous when i have extra cash to give.... i am a people pleaser, why make them angry for a lil thing?.... I am smart when all the other people are stupid... I am tall when others are short.... I am fat when others are thin...
BUT I WANT TO MAKE A FEW THINGS CLEAR!
I AM NOT A PUSH OVER!
I AM NOT SPOILT!
AND NO ONE IS EVER TOO NICE!!!!!
I am who I am and no one else.
Don't judge me. or I'll judge you. and the outcome isn't pretty.
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
this is what happens when I'm bored and I start to think about previous comments about me.
Monday, August 25, 2008
I HATE AIRASIA!!!!!!!
AirAsia SUCKS!!!!! ITS TERRIBLE! HORRIBLE! STUPID!!!!!
My flight was five pm and i was supposed to arrive in kk at 7.30pm so as precaution ce mandy and i got onto the bus at 3 and arrived at LCCT at 4! the moment i arrived, my phone vibrated, incoming message, from who?? AIRASIA! it said my flight has been rescheduled to 9.50pm!
Now what am i supposed to do for four hours???????
Ce mandy bought me a book: Cecelia Ahern. Title: If You Could See Me Now.
Its nice....
I bought a cup of mocha from coffee bean and sat and read....... two hours later... ce had to go back so i checked in and waited in the boarding hall....
I bought myself a mcd set but that lasted a hour only...
I met this lady... a nice lady... businesswoman.... she was on the same flight as me....
So together we grumbled and complained... laughed and sighed.....
then at last! Madeline said she was in the terminal! Her flight was delayed as well! Haha! Same time different plane!
We met back in kk as well! well, it did fly off at the same time! Haha!
Anyway, I know i'll be sitting on airasia sooner or later anyway but just to let you guys know!
AIRASIA SUCKS!
Thoughts and rants,
Joyce
My flight was five pm and i was supposed to arrive in kk at 7.30pm so as precaution ce mandy and i got onto the bus at 3 and arrived at LCCT at 4! the moment i arrived, my phone vibrated, incoming message, from who?? AIRASIA! it said my flight has been rescheduled to 9.50pm!
Now what am i supposed to do for four hours???????
Ce mandy bought me a book: Cecelia Ahern. Title: If You Could See Me Now.
Its nice....
I bought a cup of mocha from coffee bean and sat and read....... two hours later... ce had to go back so i checked in and waited in the boarding hall....
I bought myself a mcd set but that lasted a hour only...
I met this lady... a nice lady... businesswoman.... she was on the same flight as me....
So together we grumbled and complained... laughed and sighed.....
then at last! Madeline said she was in the terminal! Her flight was delayed as well! Haha! Same time different plane!
We met back in kk as well! well, it did fly off at the same time! Haha!
Anyway, I know i'll be sitting on airasia sooner or later anyway but just to let you guys know!
AIRASIA SUCKS!
Thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Friday, August 22, 2008
Crazy happenings in KL!
I thought I would be the only person to visit my grandparents during the holiday! Gosh, I am slightly naive!
The moment I arrive I'm picked up by this beautiful S class Mercedes Benz courtesy of Aunty Emei and Uncle Bryan!
Anyway, I got in and the driver said that we would pick up Uncle Bryan at the other airport, ok then! We went home to Uncle Bryan's place and got Ju-Hann to dinner! Apparently, Ju-Hann drives! Haha! He drives slightly like Charlotte! A lil speedy and very last minute! Not that its bad!
I'm staying at my grandparents place! Its a cozy house in Damansara! Near Victoria Station Steakhouse! It looks small but its not! It has three Queen sized beds and two double decker beds! It has Five rooms so you do the splitting la~!
I love KL! The malls, the diversity, the community, the cultures, the traditions, the harmony!
As they always say, ONLY IN MALAYSIA! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
I guess we really have to lucky and grateful to be able to stay in this place!
We don't have much disasters, we don't have war, and yes, occasionally, the drama hangs around and politics make people go dodo but other than egos and divas the rest is great!
The crazy thing is My aunts from Singapore and Canada came down to visit! They are really candles that light up the hall! They can crack you up like a clown! I love them! hehe!
I guess that all for now!
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
The moment I arrive I'm picked up by this beautiful S class Mercedes Benz courtesy of Aunty Emei and Uncle Bryan!
Anyway, I got in and the driver said that we would pick up Uncle Bryan at the other airport, ok then! We went home to Uncle Bryan's place and got Ju-Hann to dinner! Apparently, Ju-Hann drives! Haha! He drives slightly like Charlotte! A lil speedy and very last minute! Not that its bad!
I'm staying at my grandparents place! Its a cozy house in Damansara! Near Victoria Station Steakhouse! It looks small but its not! It has three Queen sized beds and two double decker beds! It has Five rooms so you do the splitting la~!
I love KL! The malls, the diversity, the community, the cultures, the traditions, the harmony!
As they always say, ONLY IN MALAYSIA! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
I guess we really have to lucky and grateful to be able to stay in this place!
We don't have much disasters, we don't have war, and yes, occasionally, the drama hangs around and politics make people go dodo but other than egos and divas the rest is great!
The crazy thing is My aunts from Singapore and Canada came down to visit! They are really candles that light up the hall! They can crack you up like a clown! I love them! hehe!
I guess that all for now!
Thoughts and Rants,
Joyce
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Kuala Lumpur
Kuala Lumpur is where I am! It is busy and alive and crazy!
This town is always moving! It is in constant motion! The roads are never empty!
To sleep at nine pm is too early! The night is still young! Haha! If you are a klite, you will understand that sleeping early is at least 10.30! And don't forget thats early!
My family sleeps at 12. Most of the time. My grandparents here are like that. Wake up at 8.30am and sleep at 12. thats their lifestyle. sounds so leisurely ain't it?
I love KL! Its easy on the eyes! The lights! The Life! The Land!
I hope I get to shop! I need some sneakers and jeans! And a new bag!
My friends always pour in on me when they find out I'm in kl!
Sighs.... The friends i have.... haha... but i'm like that too sometimes! hahaha!
Thoughts and rants,
Joyce
This town is always moving! It is in constant motion! The roads are never empty!
To sleep at nine pm is too early! The night is still young! Haha! If you are a klite, you will understand that sleeping early is at least 10.30! And don't forget thats early!
My family sleeps at 12. Most of the time. My grandparents here are like that. Wake up at 8.30am and sleep at 12. thats their lifestyle. sounds so leisurely ain't it?
I love KL! Its easy on the eyes! The lights! The Life! The Land!
I hope I get to shop! I need some sneakers and jeans! And a new bag!
My friends always pour in on me when they find out I'm in kl!
Sighs.... The friends i have.... haha... but i'm like that too sometimes! hahaha!
Thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Hey people....
Hey, I just wanted to tell you guys i won't be around from Wednesday to Monday!
I will try to post something in KL but most probably not. Will miss you guys!
Haha,
Joyce
I will try to post something in KL but most probably not. Will miss you guys!
Haha,
Joyce
Monday, August 18, 2008
i'm having a fit... a tantrum....
Have you ever written a song which sounds totally good then someone hears it and says thats not acceptable and then walks away...
Have you ever gave a speech and then someone says you are talking nonsense and walks away....
Have you ever danced like you've never danced before but the judge went: foul! and you were disqualified...
We all know the feeling some time... some where... some how.....
When its so close to your heart and you've finally got the courage to stand up and shout!.......
Someone stands up too but doesn't cheer for you!
Instead he shoots you down like a bird soaring in the sky and the hunter shoots it with accuracy....
Thats how i felt....
You know who you are...
I don't know how you did it...
But from now on you won't have my trust....
fumes,
Joyce
Have you ever gave a speech and then someone says you are talking nonsense and walks away....
Have you ever danced like you've never danced before but the judge went: foul! and you were disqualified...
We all know the feeling some time... some where... some how.....
When its so close to your heart and you've finally got the courage to stand up and shout!.......
Someone stands up too but doesn't cheer for you!
Instead he shoots you down like a bird soaring in the sky and the hunter shoots it with accuracy....
Thats how i felt....
You know who you are...
I don't know how you did it...
But from now on you won't have my trust....
fumes,
Joyce
Saturday, August 16, 2008
I love my music.... and my holidays!
I have a week of holiday! Meaning no more school for one week! Its enough for me! All i have in mind is my mp3 filled with the songs that i can totally rock out and sleep in to! I have stuff to do but all i really want to do is use the comp, watch tv, listen to plenty of music and sleep into all those hours of sleep that i have been deprived of!
Haha,
Joyce
Haha,
Joyce
Friday, August 15, 2008
I had the shittiest day of my life!!!!!
14th Of August, Thursday, was probably the shittiest day i could ever have in my entire life... yet....
It started out like this:
Mom: Joyce, you better wake up! You're goin to be late! And ask your sister to send you to school...
Me : (groans/sighs) ok....
Sis: WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO DO THIS TO US EVERYDAY?
( my sister sleeps with me now)...
I wake up and go down to the office and use the comp but before i could go online!
Dad : Let me use the comp! I need to check my mail..
Me : ok.... (reluctantly moves away)
I have a quick breakfast consisting of Milo and a 3 pieces Oreos and I'm done...
I look at my phone and it says low battery... I'm, like, wow, what a way to start the day...
I reach school and 8 people go: HI JOYCE!!!!!
Fakes a smile and walk over....
'Hi!' what you guys doing?'
' oh we practice song for contest later!'
in my mind, Wow, what bad english!!!
They start singing and my eardrums feel like cracking!
They are singing in such a high pitch one more syllable and glass will break!
I suggest they go lower but BITCHY EMILY SAYS: NO ITS GOOD THIS WAY!
Of course its good, its so good that its so obvious that you are going to lose!!!!
I have to conduct a bunch of MONKEYS INTO TALKING LIKE HUMAN BEINGS!!
but i thank God let us have second place in the choral speaking competition!
Later that day, i went for the science quiz my science teacher put me in!
It was tough stuff yo!!!
well, not really la~ but i couldn't figure out a few...
Akmal and Mahathir from 2AM1 are total freaks! They finished in like 4 1/2 minutes!!!
Then, Melody and Terry from 2C1 finished!
I was in total competitive mode then!
I finished a minute after them!
I couldn't let anyone else overtake me then!
Sudamma my class partner was like: I don't understand how you think that fast!
Then i realized that i had finished the whole quiz without him answering one!
hahaahah!
Then we had Chinese class! As usual routine, Puan Yap will start the class with her lectures!
Her words are: YOU ARE STUPID! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A STUDENT GOING AGAINST A RULE SET BY TEACHERS WHO TEACH! WE ARE TEACHING YOU! TRYING TO SET YOU RIGHT! YOU ARE STUPID! I HAVE TAUGHT FOR TEN YEARS AND YOU ARE THE WORST CLASS EVER! AND YOU ARE THE FIRST CLASS THAT I HAVE EVER HATED GOING INTO!
I agree that sometimes she is right but wasting your time yelling at us how stupid we are isn't going to make us any smarter!!
After that tension filled class, i walked out and sat with Chao Sheng, Bui Hin, Edmund, Lia, Mich, Wen Yiing, Jan and MichM, then all of a sudden!
BuiHin: Whats that on your collar?
Me: huh??
Chao Sheng: Is that bird shit?
Me: WHAT??!!!
Wen Yiing: hahahahahahah! dont move la~!
Chao Sheng: (Wipes it slightly with his tissue)
BuiHin: I think you're making it worse...
WenYiing: yeah.. stop....
Chao Sheng: (throws tissue into the bush) Hehe...
Me: Could this day get any worse?
Everybody: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
My sister came to pick me and said: we have to go change my car with dad and buy food from damai.
In my mind, i so hope the shit isn't obvious...
Sis: whats that on your collar?
Me: you really wanna know?
Sis: erm... i guess..
Me: Its bird shit...
Sis: hahahhahahahhahhaha!
Me: please drive now...
So we went to get food and we changed the car...
I looked at the time and went am I missing something?
Clock display time: 7.30pm 14th August Thursday
THURSDAY?!!!!!
As usual, i was the last one to arrive at tuition again!
I sat down and started my math work..
Cammy: wanna have pizza?
Me and Clair: Sure!
WenYiing: Can oso...
Nickly: Bolehla...
Cikgu Lim: Just not too much ar!
Cammy ordered Pepperoni Pizza
We ate and then there were the weird jokes and loud laughters!
Fun as always!
There was one last piece and Cikgu Lim went: I'll cut it up and everyone have one!
It was so funny!
As if he was doing a operation! hahahaha!
The Money for the pizza! haha!
Cikgu Lim doing Operation Pizza! And that Clair Tay and Cammy!
Operation In Progress!
The Operation results! hahaha!
Although the day started out rough and really tiring!
At the end, It was a great day!
I realized that i have a great string of friends that are reliable and true!
I have all my limbs!
I have a roof over my head!
I have food to eat!
I have friends and family who care about me!
I am thankful to have all these things!
I may complain and whine but all in all I am grateful!
haha,
Joyce
It started out like this:
Mom: Joyce, you better wake up! You're goin to be late! And ask your sister to send you to school...
Me : (groans/sighs) ok....
Sis: WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO DO THIS TO US EVERYDAY?
( my sister sleeps with me now)...
I wake up and go down to the office and use the comp but before i could go online!
Dad : Let me use the comp! I need to check my mail..
Me : ok.... (reluctantly moves away)
I have a quick breakfast consisting of Milo and a 3 pieces Oreos and I'm done...
I look at my phone and it says low battery... I'm, like, wow, what a way to start the day...
I reach school and 8 people go: HI JOYCE!!!!!
Fakes a smile and walk over....
'Hi!' what you guys doing?'
' oh we practice song for contest later!'
in my mind, Wow, what bad english!!!
They start singing and my eardrums feel like cracking!
They are singing in such a high pitch one more syllable and glass will break!
I suggest they go lower but BITCHY EMILY SAYS: NO ITS GOOD THIS WAY!
Of course its good, its so good that its so obvious that you are going to lose!!!!
I have to conduct a bunch of MONKEYS INTO TALKING LIKE HUMAN BEINGS!!
but i thank God let us have second place in the choral speaking competition!
Later that day, i went for the science quiz my science teacher put me in!
It was tough stuff yo!!!
well, not really la~ but i couldn't figure out a few...
Akmal and Mahathir from 2AM1 are total freaks! They finished in like 4 1/2 minutes!!!
Then, Melody and Terry from 2C1 finished!
I was in total competitive mode then!
I finished a minute after them!
I couldn't let anyone else overtake me then!
Sudamma my class partner was like: I don't understand how you think that fast!
Then i realized that i had finished the whole quiz without him answering one!
hahaahah!
Then we had Chinese class! As usual routine, Puan Yap will start the class with her lectures!
Her words are: YOU ARE STUPID! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A STUDENT GOING AGAINST A RULE SET BY TEACHERS WHO TEACH! WE ARE TEACHING YOU! TRYING TO SET YOU RIGHT! YOU ARE STUPID! I HAVE TAUGHT FOR TEN YEARS AND YOU ARE THE WORST CLASS EVER! AND YOU ARE THE FIRST CLASS THAT I HAVE EVER HATED GOING INTO!
I agree that sometimes she is right but wasting your time yelling at us how stupid we are isn't going to make us any smarter!!
After that tension filled class, i walked out and sat with Chao Sheng, Bui Hin, Edmund, Lia, Mich, Wen Yiing, Jan and MichM, then all of a sudden!
BuiHin: Whats that on your collar?
Me: huh??
Chao Sheng: Is that bird shit?
Me: WHAT??!!!
Wen Yiing: hahahahahahah! dont move la~!
Chao Sheng: (Wipes it slightly with his tissue)
BuiHin: I think you're making it worse...
WenYiing: yeah.. stop....
Chao Sheng: (throws tissue into the bush) Hehe...
Me: Could this day get any worse?
Everybody: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
My sister came to pick me and said: we have to go change my car with dad and buy food from damai.
In my mind, i so hope the shit isn't obvious...
Sis: whats that on your collar?
Me: you really wanna know?
Sis: erm... i guess..
Me: Its bird shit...
Sis: hahahhahahahhahhaha!
Me: please drive now...
So we went to get food and we changed the car...
I looked at the time and went am I missing something?
Clock display time: 7.30pm 14th August Thursday
THURSDAY?!!!!!
As usual, i was the last one to arrive at tuition again!
I sat down and started my math work..
Cammy: wanna have pizza?
Me and Clair: Sure!
WenYiing: Can oso...
Nickly: Bolehla...
Cikgu Lim: Just not too much ar!
Cammy ordered Pepperoni Pizza
We ate and then there were the weird jokes and loud laughters!
Fun as always!
There was one last piece and Cikgu Lim went: I'll cut it up and everyone have one!
It was so funny!
As if he was doing a operation! hahahaha!
The Money for the pizza! haha!
Cikgu Lim doing Operation Pizza! And that Clair Tay and Cammy!
Operation In Progress!
The Operation results! hahaha!
Although the day started out rough and really tiring!
At the end, It was a great day!
I realized that i have a great string of friends that are reliable and true!
I have all my limbs!
I have a roof over my head!
I have food to eat!
I have friends and family who care about me!
I am thankful to have all these things!
I may complain and whine but all in all I am grateful!
haha,
Joyce
Saturday, August 9, 2008
hypocrites... self absorbed... my heart...
I don't like people who are hypocrites! I am one but i don't shoved it in your face like someone i know! They claim they're not racist but they probably are the worst of racist people!
Self absorbed people! I pity them! They are so hungry for perfection of themselves when they too blind to see that no one is perfect!
I am the person who speaks their mind but doesn't speak heart felt thoughts!
You may think i am speaking heart felt! I'm sorry to disappoint you but i wasn't!
For me to speak heart felt, i would have to be either drunk or about to die!
I rarely speak heart felt.. to those whom i consider best friends or sisters or brothers..
you guys have yet to see my heart..
you may know my secrets but you don't know my heart.....
sorry...
thoughts,
Joyce
Self absorbed people! I pity them! They are so hungry for perfection of themselves when they too blind to see that no one is perfect!
I am the person who speaks their mind but doesn't speak heart felt thoughts!
You may think i am speaking heart felt! I'm sorry to disappoint you but i wasn't!
For me to speak heart felt, i would have to be either drunk or about to die!
I rarely speak heart felt.. to those whom i consider best friends or sisters or brothers..
you guys have yet to see my heart..
you may know my secrets but you don't know my heart.....
sorry...
thoughts,
Joyce
Friday, August 8, 2008
Ever had a...
Have you ever had a friend whom you've so close with but recently started hating?
If you can answer that truthfully, and your answer is yes, then welcome aboard my ship!
Its not that kinda hate where you just see them and feel angry its that kinda hate where you see them and say where did the person i became friends with go?
I'm not saying their names because i believe that people change and it may be for the better or for worse but in the end its still a change.
I didn't start hating them until the little things that you always don't mind become something that you can't NOT mind! The little things that tick others but not you and me.
If friendship was like chocolate, then it would be called bittersweet!
It is bittersweet... at first taste all is sweet, smooth, creamy, once swallowed you taste the bitterness not a lot but the taste is there to be savored...
I am not complaining but i am stating my opinion... a comment on how i feel...
but for all you know... the change is not them.... but me.... who knows rite?...
thoughts,
Joyce
If you can answer that truthfully, and your answer is yes, then welcome aboard my ship!
Its not that kinda hate where you just see them and feel angry its that kinda hate where you see them and say where did the person i became friends with go?
I'm not saying their names because i believe that people change and it may be for the better or for worse but in the end its still a change.
I didn't start hating them until the little things that you always don't mind become something that you can't NOT mind! The little things that tick others but not you and me.
If friendship was like chocolate, then it would be called bittersweet!
It is bittersweet... at first taste all is sweet, smooth, creamy, once swallowed you taste the bitterness not a lot but the taste is there to be savored...
I am not complaining but i am stating my opinion... a comment on how i feel...
but for all you know... the change is not them.... but me.... who knows rite?...
thoughts,
Joyce
Friday, August 1, 2008
the after thoughts of reading...
I read Michelle's latest entry into her blog....
being a self centered person...
well it is true that we are all self centered....
sometimes being a self centered person has its perks and downfalls....
being a self centered person can take you to the top some times....
being self centered may also drive your friends away...
we all know some one thats self centered and if you don't....
well, surprise! it might be you...
being expressive with the way you feel and telling your opinions is fine..
sometimes it can really annoy ones patience...
and if you start talking about all day...
thats a real pain in the arse...
i know telling him/her off might be the only way...
but is there a better way without conflict and drama?
a way that all is at peace and the point is proven?
Sometimes when we express how we really feel can hurt a person to the point of tears...
to a point where the friendship is unstable...
the friendship might be burnt...
but if its all you want to do...
will you do it in the end?
will you take the leap of faith?
I once told a friend off on her self centeredness..
she and i haven't spoken since...
we have said our hi's and how are you?....
but we no longer share heart felt conversations we once had...
To tell a person that they are self centered might be a bit crude...
some happily acknowledge the fact they are..
but once they have...
do they change?
there is a Chinese phrase it goes:
to move a mountain is easier than changing a person....
I hate chinese lessons...
thinking about makes me stressed, angry...
but these lessons change my perspective on life...
how we think and how our actions actually affects all around us...
i never knew that telling a white lie..
even one that may save a loved one from hurt can eat you up inside...
fake smiles and quick yet smart remarks...
it really does affect ones mind and then the ones around you...
Self centeredness is a label...
a habit...
a act...
it is one that is common...
mostly found among women...
ladies...
girls....
why you ask?
it is because appearance is important..
how we dressed..
how we look..
how we talk...
how fat you are..
how thin you are...
it is important...
it is a part of daily life to be thinner than just thin..
Self centeredness is not a attractive part of a person..
it is often rejected by the opposite sex...
but what can you really do to help yourself or even one that you know has it?
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
being a self centered person...
well it is true that we are all self centered....
sometimes being a self centered person has its perks and downfalls....
being a self centered person can take you to the top some times....
being self centered may also drive your friends away...
we all know some one thats self centered and if you don't....
well, surprise! it might be you...
being expressive with the way you feel and telling your opinions is fine..
sometimes it can really annoy ones patience...
and if you start talking about all day...
thats a real pain in the arse...
i know telling him/her off might be the only way...
but is there a better way without conflict and drama?
a way that all is at peace and the point is proven?
Sometimes when we express how we really feel can hurt a person to the point of tears...
to a point where the friendship is unstable...
the friendship might be burnt...
but if its all you want to do...
will you do it in the end?
will you take the leap of faith?
I once told a friend off on her self centeredness..
she and i haven't spoken since...
we have said our hi's and how are you?....
but we no longer share heart felt conversations we once had...
To tell a person that they are self centered might be a bit crude...
some happily acknowledge the fact they are..
but once they have...
do they change?
there is a Chinese phrase it goes:
to move a mountain is easier than changing a person....
I hate chinese lessons...
thinking about makes me stressed, angry...
but these lessons change my perspective on life...
how we think and how our actions actually affects all around us...
i never knew that telling a white lie..
even one that may save a loved one from hurt can eat you up inside...
fake smiles and quick yet smart remarks...
it really does affect ones mind and then the ones around you...
Self centeredness is a label...
a habit...
a act...
it is one that is common...
mostly found among women...
ladies...
girls....
why you ask?
it is because appearance is important..
how we dressed..
how we look..
how we talk...
how fat you are..
how thin you are...
it is important...
it is a part of daily life to be thinner than just thin..
Self centeredness is not a attractive part of a person..
it is often rejected by the opposite sex...
but what can you really do to help yourself or even one that you know has it?
thoughts and rants,
Joyce
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Teen stars i admire...
There are a couple of stars that I admire...
A couple are mine..
A couple are for my friends...
The rest is up to you to figure out...
haha,
Joyce
Getting used to....
Apparently, a lot is changing now.
The weather, the cost of living, pretty much affects everything else.
Another thing changing? Me.
I'm a fourteen year old but a lot say I don't act like one, it can be a compliment sometimes but it can be a little insulting too.
Its cause of how i grew up.
When i turned 5, I started watching MTV instead of cartoons.
I understood a lot of things before the time came.
And the one thing about my family is we have this thing.
This aura that feeds people the thought that says I'm rich but the truth is we're not.
I'm not saying we're poor but we are just well to do.
My sisters say they've been through it.
but i guess they don't tend to analyze stuff like i do.
I tend to over analyze things.
It can be a gift but also a curse i guess.
The fact that all our lives we are being called rich kids, bothers me a little.
It can be a tease sometimes but sometimes a little suffocating.
I used to be this simple kid but now everything is so complicated.
And the worst part is sometimes i cant say anything.
I just keep it in.
Maybe one day I'll spill it all out. Just maybe.
haha. but till then, I'll be positive.
Or rather I'll try!
haha,
Joyce
The weather, the cost of living, pretty much affects everything else.
Another thing changing? Me.
I'm a fourteen year old but a lot say I don't act like one, it can be a compliment sometimes but it can be a little insulting too.
Its cause of how i grew up.
When i turned 5, I started watching MTV instead of cartoons.
I understood a lot of things before the time came.
And the one thing about my family is we have this thing.
This aura that feeds people the thought that says I'm rich but the truth is we're not.
I'm not saying we're poor but we are just well to do.
My sisters say they've been through it.
but i guess they don't tend to analyze stuff like i do.
I tend to over analyze things.
It can be a gift but also a curse i guess.
The fact that all our lives we are being called rich kids, bothers me a little.
It can be a tease sometimes but sometimes a little suffocating.
I used to be this simple kid but now everything is so complicated.
And the worst part is sometimes i cant say anything.
I just keep it in.
Maybe one day I'll spill it all out. Just maybe.
haha. but till then, I'll be positive.
Or rather I'll try!
haha,
Joyce
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Crazy, funny and eccentric days
I have had some pretty crazy weird funny days lately!
the form ones now are super stupid!
Their conversations:
" My friend brought a stapler to school today!"
" I ate babi, you know!"
Lia, Mich and me were like: "wow, thats like crazy dangerous!" "thats so brave and daring!"
which is just our sarcasm and witty fun to play with their itty bitty brains! hahhha!
I have a crazy tight schedule nowadays! i wake up at eight eat breakfast, study, get ready for sch, go to sch, come back from sch, take a shower, do my homework, write stuff to myself, watch tv then zzz. I rarely spend time with family anymore. I rarely have heartfelt talk to my mom or dad or sisters. just the occasional have you studied is as close as it gets!
And the homework is stacked sky high! chinese sentences, english choral speaking, sej and geo proj, math and science peka... adui.... pengsan ni.......
I am like a hyper active kid who finally understands exhaustion!
hahaha!
well, thats about it!
haha,
Joyce
the form ones now are super stupid!
Their conversations:
" My friend brought a stapler to school today!"
" I ate babi, you know!"
Lia, Mich and me were like: "wow, thats like crazy dangerous!" "thats so brave and daring!"
which is just our sarcasm and witty fun to play with their itty bitty brains! hahhha!
I have a crazy tight schedule nowadays! i wake up at eight eat breakfast, study, get ready for sch, go to sch, come back from sch, take a shower, do my homework, write stuff to myself, watch tv then zzz. I rarely spend time with family anymore. I rarely have heartfelt talk to my mom or dad or sisters. just the occasional have you studied is as close as it gets!
And the homework is stacked sky high! chinese sentences, english choral speaking, sej and geo proj, math and science peka... adui.... pengsan ni.......
I am like a hyper active kid who finally understands exhaustion!
hahaha!
well, thats about it!
haha,
Joyce
Saturday, July 19, 2008
disgust...... hate.... jealousy... unnecessary wants...
I am disgusted by girls who date guys just because they asked... not because he is the guy she likes but because he asked... the guys hang around but all she does is act cool and not interested then when they break up she gets all sad and cries and says things like he doesn't care about her.. LIKE WTF?! hello! when he hung around you, the only person who didn't care was you!
I hate the way my life is! I hate the way I have to live with people who are constantly paranoid of one another! I hate the way people around me have a better life than I do! I hate the way I am forced into things I hate doing! I hate knowing the fact that in my family its wrong to say no to a chore or something asked! I hate my life! I am not complaining! Its just the way it is!
I am jealus of other people's lifestyle! I jealous about knowing that my parents aren't the best they can be! I jealous! Knowing there are better parents out there! I am jealous!
I have unnecessary wants! I want more clothes! I want a bigger room! I want chocolate! I want more money to spend! I want a better phone! I want a boyfriend! I want better friends!(no offence to the ones i have now) I just want extra stuff! I want!
argh. in a snappy mood right now.
i hate you,
Joyce
I hate the way my life is! I hate the way I have to live with people who are constantly paranoid of one another! I hate the way people around me have a better life than I do! I hate the way I am forced into things I hate doing! I hate knowing the fact that in my family its wrong to say no to a chore or something asked! I hate my life! I am not complaining! Its just the way it is!
I am jealus of other people's lifestyle! I jealous about knowing that my parents aren't the best they can be! I jealous! Knowing there are better parents out there! I am jealous!
I have unnecessary wants! I want more clothes! I want a bigger room! I want chocolate! I want more money to spend! I want a better phone! I want a boyfriend! I want better friends!(no offence to the ones i have now) I just want extra stuff! I want!
argh. in a snappy mood right now.
i hate you,
Joyce
Thursday, July 17, 2008
GossipGirl!!!!!!!!!!
For those of you, who don't know me that well, i like gossip girl! no thats a understatement I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL! For no apparent reason, i like it! i guess its because there are cute guys pretty girls well crafted lies and the pretty things they wear! Me, Mich and Lia have been following the series week to week now! haha! and the drama keeps on pouring in!
WE ARE HUNGRY FOR IT AND WE WANT MORE! just like we want Lia to bake more brownies coz they are good! hehehehe
haha,
Joyce
WE ARE HUNGRY FOR IT AND WE WANT MORE! just like we want Lia to bake more brownies coz they are good! hehehehe
haha,
Joyce
a poem from a friend that got me hooked on to poetry
You see in me,
What you wish to be,
But what I show,
Is truth you wish not know,
The truth I show,
Is what you don’t wish to know,
Therefore you turn away,
While it eats you day by day,
What you wish to be,
But what I show,
Is truth you wish not know,
The truth I show,
Is what you don’t wish to know,
Therefore you turn away,
While it eats you day by day,
Yet it keeps me safe,
For I am in essence a waif,
Easily shattered,
Taken for granted,
Love me,
Break me,
I am a mirror,
Reflecting what you see
I am the the cup of coffee you thought was tea, i may seem simple and easy, yet i am deeper than the pacific sea...
Crazy about music,
Crazy about you,
Crazy about life
and what i have to do...
Joyce
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
I'm having one of those days....
I'm having those days where i wake up and i feel horrible about myself, where i don't wanna see anyone and not go anywhere, where all i want is music and a book, where no one questions my every move, where going to school is a no go at all and then i end up in my mom's office in front of the comp keeping track of her tankers, and then listening to music, doing my stupid Chinese homework which teaches me nothing, and then do some clerk work but all i really want inside is to go back to my room and curl up, read a book, text my friends, write poems, snippets, stories, songs but when can i really get what i want? when will it ever come true? i guess it wont... these are just my ever ranting wants of fantasies....
i am crazy about music... i can listen to it all day and not eat or drink anything.... and not go anywhere...
i am a book lover... give me a book... one that i will enjoy and you wont hear a single sound come out of my throat until i am done.... sometimes, even without music and a book, i wont say anything...
its just the way i am.... its not that i am shy or anything... i just don't wanna say anything... just wanna dream.... think... analyze something in silence.... just want to explore those random thoughts that i have kept within me and no one can see.... hear... or feel the same as i do..... i just want to go to that place where no one can hurt me... where i am who i am and if you aren't happy with it, then go away... sadly, reality isn't like that... so these thoughts are personal or rather secrets....
there is these fury bubbling underneath my skin... so badly i want to let go... but i know... once i do, i will be exposed... the secrets within will burn the bridges i have so carefully built with my loved ones... and the thoughts i have kept hidden will be explored by them that i will be a vulnerable piece of meat left to the wolves and vultures to finish off.....
what am i suppose to do? my father wants me to be the dream he could not have a doctor he says one that has a 4.0GPA and nine A's for SPM one that learns chinese all through secondary school one that exceeds all my other sisters but deep down, is that really what i want? being a doctor means saving lives and one wrong move could finish ones life one wrong move and a mother, father, sibling, friend, partner, boss could be gone forever... one wrong move and his career and dreams could disappear foreveer.. one wrong move and all will be lost... it would mean that i might not be around for those holidays, birthdays, and parties that my whole family will attend without me.. it would mean my dreams of being something else would be demolished.. it means i would be living someone else's dream... A doctor means endless studying, focus, attentive, swift and accurate actions... Can I? Will I? Should I? Could I? Music is in my soul, body, mind, in my blood! My sis Charlotte says I'm brainy, but am I? Am I brainy enough to be a doctor? One that saves lives? Am I tough enough to survive that? 4 years of medical school and 2 years of internships? People say i think differently I am a fourteen year old but i dont look and think or speak like one They say I speak like a seventeen or eighteen year old Is it my fault that i grew up with siblings that are five years older than me? is it my fault that i wanted to watch cartoons but all i watched is MTV? Is it my fault that i stopped watching cartoons at a age of 5? is it my fault that i could be a art stream student but i will be forced into science stream anyway? is it my fault that i cant express the way i feel in my family? that i will forever be considered a quiet shy and sweet child child... not teen.. not adult... just a child.... innocent... sweet.. untouched... child.... they all say i am brighter than my age smarter.... more attentive.... more complicated and sophisticated than many my age.... but still i am considered a child...
All i ever wanted is to be loved, but it seems as if it hardly ever happens in my family
my fathers love is given onl when you reach his standards
i never really did
i represented Sabah for English speech and he wasn't even happy
when i got 2nd in class
he said why couldnt you get the first place
when i got 97 for my english paper he said why not a hundred
when i won a karaoke competition
all he said was i wasted my time
i never was the golden child
they always say that the youngest is the spoiled one
sadly, there is no such thing as spoiled in my family
we were brought up to be independent
to do things as we were told
we were living better than average people
but for some reason
i wanted to be just like those people
they played in the rain
they had as much candy as they wanted
when they wanted to go out with their friends
their parents just let them
when they failed nothing happen to them
when they lost something
it would be replaced
in our family, you lose it
you earn it back yourself
you want to go out
do something here first and earn the outing
you fail you lose a priviledge
using the comp, tv or room
we learnt to live the hard way then the easy way
they say its better for you
but they dont actually realize how much it affects your childhood
we were never really born with a silver spoon in our mouths
but we did live better than alot
i know this sounds like a complaint
but i'm not
i'm just tired of living up to expectations and not fulfilling them
argh... the pressure
i'm done for now.. hehe
Joyce
i am crazy about music... i can listen to it all day and not eat or drink anything.... and not go anywhere...
i am a book lover... give me a book... one that i will enjoy and you wont hear a single sound come out of my throat until i am done.... sometimes, even without music and a book, i wont say anything...
its just the way i am.... its not that i am shy or anything... i just don't wanna say anything... just wanna dream.... think... analyze something in silence.... just want to explore those random thoughts that i have kept within me and no one can see.... hear... or feel the same as i do..... i just want to go to that place where no one can hurt me... where i am who i am and if you aren't happy with it, then go away... sadly, reality isn't like that... so these thoughts are personal or rather secrets....
there is these fury bubbling underneath my skin... so badly i want to let go... but i know... once i do, i will be exposed... the secrets within will burn the bridges i have so carefully built with my loved ones... and the thoughts i have kept hidden will be explored by them that i will be a vulnerable piece of meat left to the wolves and vultures to finish off.....
what am i suppose to do? my father wants me to be the dream he could not have a doctor he says one that has a 4.0GPA and nine A's for SPM one that learns chinese all through secondary school one that exceeds all my other sisters but deep down, is that really what i want? being a doctor means saving lives and one wrong move could finish ones life one wrong move and a mother, father, sibling, friend, partner, boss could be gone forever... one wrong move and his career and dreams could disappear foreveer.. one wrong move and all will be lost... it would mean that i might not be around for those holidays, birthdays, and parties that my whole family will attend without me.. it would mean my dreams of being something else would be demolished.. it means i would be living someone else's dream... A doctor means endless studying, focus, attentive, swift and accurate actions... Can I? Will I? Should I? Could I? Music is in my soul, body, mind, in my blood! My sis Charlotte says I'm brainy, but am I? Am I brainy enough to be a doctor? One that saves lives? Am I tough enough to survive that? 4 years of medical school and 2 years of internships? People say i think differently I am a fourteen year old but i dont look and think or speak like one They say I speak like a seventeen or eighteen year old Is it my fault that i grew up with siblings that are five years older than me? is it my fault that i wanted to watch cartoons but all i watched is MTV? Is it my fault that i stopped watching cartoons at a age of 5? is it my fault that i could be a art stream student but i will be forced into science stream anyway? is it my fault that i cant express the way i feel in my family? that i will forever be considered a quiet shy and sweet child child... not teen.. not adult... just a child.... innocent... sweet.. untouched... child.... they all say i am brighter than my age smarter.... more attentive.... more complicated and sophisticated than many my age.... but still i am considered a child...
All i ever wanted is to be loved, but it seems as if it hardly ever happens in my family
my fathers love is given onl when you reach his standards
i never really did
i represented Sabah for English speech and he wasn't even happy
when i got 2nd in class
he said why couldnt you get the first place
when i got 97 for my english paper he said why not a hundred
when i won a karaoke competition
all he said was i wasted my time
i never was the golden child
they always say that the youngest is the spoiled one
sadly, there is no such thing as spoiled in my family
we were brought up to be independent
to do things as we were told
we were living better than average people
but for some reason
i wanted to be just like those people
they played in the rain
they had as much candy as they wanted
when they wanted to go out with their friends
their parents just let them
when they failed nothing happen to them
when they lost something
it would be replaced
in our family, you lose it
you earn it back yourself
you want to go out
do something here first and earn the outing
you fail you lose a priviledge
using the comp, tv or room
we learnt to live the hard way then the easy way
they say its better for you
but they dont actually realize how much it affects your childhood
we were never really born with a silver spoon in our mouths
but we did live better than alot
i know this sounds like a complaint
but i'm not
i'm just tired of living up to expectations and not fulfilling them
argh... the pressure
i'm done for now.. hehe
Joyce
Sunday, July 13, 2008
The effects Music has on me...
Music is such a strong word with an even stronger sound
it can rumble beneath your feet or cry in your ears take away your fears
and replace them with tears
a never ending cycle of lifes greatest years
the innovation and creation that freshens the mind and sterilizes the soul
and only you will know how far it can go
or take us back to then and dwell in the past
covering every emotion with devotion of a single word
creating a time in our life and a place in our hearts
from yesterday to tomorrow the music keeps playing...
Saturday, July 12, 2008
a topic all girls love but i keep my silence....
There is one topic which all girls like myself love to talk about....that is ........(drumroll)....... BOYS!
i don't exactly keep my silence but more of i only tell my best friends kinda thing....
hah!
Boys are eye candy, cute, sweet, fun and sometimes if they come along, HOT! Boys can sometimes drive you up the wall! Boys can make you drool! Boys can make you trip over a stick! Boys can also make you do things you never even dreamed about! Amazing isn't it what the opposite sex can do!
To say i haven't liked a guy before would be the biggest lie i have ever told and also a sad case which i thank god i do like boys! haha!
I like boys who make me laugh, giggle, bubbly inside and most all of understand me! like me! respect me for who i am! and this has to be a boy who speaks at least good English and is presentable!
Lets talk about cute boys we can only dream of meeting! haha!
Joyce
i don't exactly keep my silence but more of i only tell my best friends kinda thing....
hah!
Boys are eye candy, cute, sweet, fun and sometimes if they come along, HOT! Boys can sometimes drive you up the wall! Boys can make you drool! Boys can make you trip over a stick! Boys can also make you do things you never even dreamed about! Amazing isn't it what the opposite sex can do!
To say i haven't liked a guy before would be the biggest lie i have ever told and also a sad case which i thank god i do like boys! haha!
I like boys who make me laugh, giggle, bubbly inside and most all of understand me! like me! respect me for who i am! and this has to be a boy who speaks at least good English and is presentable!
Lets talk about cute boys we can only dream of meeting! haha!
Joyce
Friday, July 11, 2008
there has been this sudden surge...
All of a sudden, everything in school changes!
Puan Lily the HEM teacher said our shoes cant have black rims! LIKE WHAT!? and then the socks! I WOULD LIKE TO ASK! WHAT HAS SOCKS AND SHOES HAVE TO DO WITH OUR EDUCATION?!
Then came the hair, i have slightly curly hair, Puan Yap the disciplinary teacher said to me: Did you perm your hair? I went: no!... she was like: fine, anyway anyone caught with a hair style will be suspended from school! FYI! Tying up your hair in a ponytail is also a hair style!
Our school teachers are crazy, demented, self centered, self obsessed, selfish people and only working as teachers because there is nothing else to put food on the table for them!
Then, it came down to suspension! they suspend all students who miss extra classes three times! the teachers don't turn up most of the time and when they do they don't teach! so what is the point of going?
they say respect your teachers! respect can't be given! it must be earned! how can they earn our respect by not turning up or even worse not teaching?
Joyce
Puan Lily the HEM teacher said our shoes cant have black rims! LIKE WHAT!? and then the socks! I WOULD LIKE TO ASK! WHAT HAS SOCKS AND SHOES HAVE TO DO WITH OUR EDUCATION?!
Then came the hair, i have slightly curly hair, Puan Yap the disciplinary teacher said to me: Did you perm your hair? I went: no!... she was like: fine, anyway anyone caught with a hair style will be suspended from school! FYI! Tying up your hair in a ponytail is also a hair style!
Our school teachers are crazy, demented, self centered, self obsessed, selfish people and only working as teachers because there is nothing else to put food on the table for them!
Then, it came down to suspension! they suspend all students who miss extra classes three times! the teachers don't turn up most of the time and when they do they don't teach! so what is the point of going?
they say respect your teachers! respect can't be given! it must be earned! how can they earn our respect by not turning up or even worse not teaching?
Joyce
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
compilations of feelings.....
I have known you my whole life
when i was ten, i moved away
i got used to living without you
but i keep dreaming about you
i guess i was in love with your memory
you know i love you
i really do
but i cant fight anymore for you
maybe we will be together again
sometime
in another life
can you save me from the hurt?
will you take my hand and run?
when its dark, will you hold me through the night?
when we are miles and miles apart, do I hold your heart?
when i fall, will you catch me?
do you see my pain ?
do you even care?
was this all a game?
feeling cold all of a sudden...
you shouldn't have left me standing alone....
i used to run to you but now you're history...
you were that boy that makes a girl lose control
you know he's a heartbreaker
but he's so hard to resist
if you only knew
she's got an body like an hour glass
no wonder boys stare
i guess second chances they dont ever matter
people never change
sometimes vengeance feels good
it does feel good when you got them
where you want them to be
i watched his wildest dreams come true
none of them involving you
i always tried to keep you satisfied
but sometimes i feel like we're in the same room
but living two worlds apart
now my hearts in two
and i cant find the other half
its like i'm walking on broken glass
better believe i bled
you're like the call i'll never get
we're ending the final score
why do we like to hurt so much?
you have made it harder just to go on
i guess this is what you get when you let your heart win
now all i want to do is find a way back into love
now all i want is for someone to look me in the eyes
and tell me that he loves me
and when he holds me in his arms
and knows that its forever
i've found my paradise
when he looks me in the eyes
__________________________________________________________
this is just a draft of my feelings inside
and this is not for anyone
and it wasnt made for that someone
just from me to you
XOXO,
Joyce
when i was ten, i moved away
i got used to living without you
but i keep dreaming about you
i guess i was in love with your memory
you know i love you
i really do
but i cant fight anymore for you
maybe we will be together again
sometime
in another life
can you save me from the hurt?
will you take my hand and run?
when its dark, will you hold me through the night?
when we are miles and miles apart, do I hold your heart?
when i fall, will you catch me?
do you see my pain ?
do you even care?
was this all a game?
feeling cold all of a sudden...
you shouldn't have left me standing alone....
i used to run to you but now you're history...
you were that boy that makes a girl lose control
you know he's a heartbreaker
but he's so hard to resist
if you only knew
she's got an body like an hour glass
no wonder boys stare
i guess second chances they dont ever matter
people never change
sometimes vengeance feels good
it does feel good when you got them
where you want them to be
i watched his wildest dreams come true
none of them involving you
i always tried to keep you satisfied
but sometimes i feel like we're in the same room
but living two worlds apart
now my hearts in two
and i cant find the other half
its like i'm walking on broken glass
better believe i bled
you're like the call i'll never get
we're ending the final score
why do we like to hurt so much?
you have made it harder just to go on
i guess this is what you get when you let your heart win
now all i want to do is find a way back into love
now all i want is for someone to look me in the eyes
and tell me that he loves me
and when he holds me in his arms
and knows that its forever
i've found my paradise
when he looks me in the eyes
__________________________________________________________
this is just a draft of my feelings inside
and this is not for anyone
and it wasnt made for that someone
just from me to you
XOXO,
Joyce
Monday, July 7, 2008
why i hate mondays.....
I hate mondays...... mondays are bad for me health.... especially this yesterday... which was monday......
i woke up at eight forty.... went downstairs to watch some music videos before having breakfast....
then my dad came down and we watched the repeat of wimbledon finals: nadal vs federer.... was super cool and alas, nadal won! woohoo! we had breakfast and had the usual where is your goal and are you working for it? lecture....
i did some last minute homework before leaving for school.... when i reached school, i went straight for my kemahiran hidup class... the teacher doesnt teach..... after that we went for assembly....
this is the moment all students dread... sitting and listening how dirty and stupid we are... so during one of the teachers many lectures i took my glasses down and wiped them clean but the moment i wiped, the right side of my specs snapped off.... i was in shock..... the first thought that came into my mind... how am i suppose to tell mom?.... i called my dad after assembly, he said get some plain ones first, we'll get the nice one later.... hehe..... thank god for a understanding dad! my mom was the usual nagging one all the way but she got me contacts to wear for todays school! but I'm kinda chicken for wearing these to school! feel weird without me glasses! sigh...
XOXO,
Joyce
i woke up at eight forty.... went downstairs to watch some music videos before having breakfast....
then my dad came down and we watched the repeat of wimbledon finals: nadal vs federer.... was super cool and alas, nadal won! woohoo! we had breakfast and had the usual where is your goal and are you working for it? lecture....
i did some last minute homework before leaving for school.... when i reached school, i went straight for my kemahiran hidup class... the teacher doesnt teach..... after that we went for assembly....
this is the moment all students dread... sitting and listening how dirty and stupid we are... so during one of the teachers many lectures i took my glasses down and wiped them clean but the moment i wiped, the right side of my specs snapped off.... i was in shock..... the first thought that came into my mind... how am i suppose to tell mom?.... i called my dad after assembly, he said get some plain ones first, we'll get the nice one later.... hehe..... thank god for a understanding dad! my mom was the usual nagging one all the way but she got me contacts to wear for todays school! but I'm kinda chicken for wearing these to school! feel weird without me glasses! sigh...
XOXO,
Joyce
MY FRIENDS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!
MY friends are like the second most important thing to me in my life!( second to family) They somehow manage to tolerate my bad side which consist of my snapping, irritating, judging, weird and etc me.... I cannot possibly imagine my life without them!
TO LIA AND MICH, MY BIGGEST KISS ON THE CHEEK AND A BEAR HUG TO BOTH OF YOU! FOR YOU ARE LIKE MY SISTERS!
TO KAREN AND MORGAN, YOU GUYS HAVE KEPT CONTACT WITH ME AND WE ALL HAVE SHARED OUR SORROWS TOGETHER EVER SINCE OUR KINDIES!
Once again, to let you, the audience, know! My friends are important to me! Not just because of their outlook or how rich they are! Yes, some of them are rich! But what i most appreciate in a friends is who they are! Just them being themselves! thats what i like! ORIGINALITY!
Yeah... i know i may not be the bestest of best friends! but i am trying to be! and hopefully i will be someday!
XOXO,
Joyce
TO LIA AND MICH, MY BIGGEST KISS ON THE CHEEK AND A BEAR HUG TO BOTH OF YOU! FOR YOU ARE LIKE MY SISTERS!
TO KAREN AND MORGAN, YOU GUYS HAVE KEPT CONTACT WITH ME AND WE ALL HAVE SHARED OUR SORROWS TOGETHER EVER SINCE OUR KINDIES!
Once again, to let you, the audience, know! My friends are important to me! Not just because of their outlook or how rich they are! Yes, some of them are rich! But what i most appreciate in a friends is who they are! Just them being themselves! thats what i like! ORIGINALITY!
Yeah... i know i may not be the bestest of best friends! but i am trying to be! and hopefully i will be someday!
XOXO,
Joyce
Friday, July 4, 2008
EMOs, friends, family, pain...
life comes with pain, sacrifice, and patience which sometimes it all seems hard to bear but believe me... i'm not stupid enough to turn EMO! EMO's slit their wrist and think its so cool to see the blood dripping out but listen! it isn't cool and it isn't nice! it hurts! you're hurting yourself you stupid thing!
Next topic is Friends......
I actually have friends that i can rely on but sometimes a sense of doubt engulfs me.... if i tell them too much, they might hurt me... if i tell them a little, will they uncover it all... if i dont tell them any part of me, are they really my friend or just friends with the part they see?
Family....
all parents fight with each other... but if a word, separation, drops out of their mouths during the fight, as a child, doesn't it scare you.... i am scared as this isn't the first time i've heard it... if it really happens, who will i pick? or what will happen? or even will i ever see my other parent ever again?
altogether, Fear and Pain....
putting salt to the wound as they say is when i may be the cause of all this, i have thought about it.... maybe if i weren't born, my three sisters would be better, smarter, but then again God doesn't make mistakes so i guess i should be happy that i'm alive but you know, i was once told by my sisters that maybe i wasn't meant to be here, i was a mistake, still it rings in my ears.......
conclusion:
Pain is a rock in your shoe when you are running, it hurts at first and you get used to it, but once in a while it jabs you here and there but it will never leave your shoe.....
XOXO,
Joyce
Next topic is Friends......
I actually have friends that i can rely on but sometimes a sense of doubt engulfs me.... if i tell them too much, they might hurt me... if i tell them a little, will they uncover it all... if i dont tell them any part of me, are they really my friend or just friends with the part they see?
Family....
all parents fight with each other... but if a word, separation, drops out of their mouths during the fight, as a child, doesn't it scare you.... i am scared as this isn't the first time i've heard it... if it really happens, who will i pick? or what will happen? or even will i ever see my other parent ever again?
altogether, Fear and Pain....
putting salt to the wound as they say is when i may be the cause of all this, i have thought about it.... maybe if i weren't born, my three sisters would be better, smarter, but then again God doesn't make mistakes so i guess i should be happy that i'm alive but you know, i was once told by my sisters that maybe i wasn't meant to be here, i was a mistake, still it rings in my ears.......
conclusion:
Pain is a rock in your shoe when you are running, it hurts at first and you get used to it, but once in a while it jabs you here and there but it will never leave your shoe.....
XOXO,
Joyce
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