EMOs, friends, family, pain...

life comes with pain, sacrifice, and patience which sometimes it all seems hard to bear but believe me... i'm not stupid enough to turn EMO! EMO's slit their wrist and think its so cool to see the blood dripping out but listen! it isn't cool and it isn't nice! it hurts! you're hurting yourself you stupid thing!

Next topic is Friends......
I actually have friends that i can rely on but sometimes a sense of doubt engulfs me.... if i tell them too much, they might hurt me... if i tell them a little, will they uncover it all... if i dont tell them any part of me, are they really my friend or just friends with the part they see?

Family....
all parents fight with each other... but if a word, separation, drops out of their mouths during the fight, as a child, doesn't it scare you.... i am scared as this isn't the first time i've heard it... if it really happens, who will i pick? or what will happen? or even will i ever see my other parent ever again?

altogether, Fear and Pain....
putting salt to the wound as they say is when i may be the cause of all this, i have thought about it.... maybe if i weren't born, my three sisters would be better, smarter, but then again God doesn't make mistakes so i guess i should be happy that i'm alive but you know, i was once told by my sisters that maybe i wasn't meant to be here, i was a mistake, still it rings in my ears.......

conclusion:
Pain is a rock in your shoe when you are running, it hurts at first and you get used to it, but once in a while it jabs you here and there but it will never leave your shoe.....

XOXO,
Joyce