if you havent watched it gurl, YOU SHUD!!!!

what could moi be talking about?

hahah!

ANGUS, THONGS AND PERFECT SNOGGING OF COURSE!!!!

its such a good flick for girls 13 and above and just below 22 !
hahahahahahhaha!!! no offense to those too young or a lil elderly!

its about a girl called georgia nicholson, she's 14 turning 15, i like this movie because there are no hollywood stars for a change. also because not all the stars are super good looking. in fact, georgia groome the main actress isnt really pretty. she's just average. and i think what attracted me the most to this movie, no no not the boy although he is awesomely gorgeous! haha! is the fact that she's a lil bit of a lost soul... she's all about making herself thinner prettier bustier and perfect for him! she may seem selfish but its actually just because she wants things to happen for her! and i think most of us are searching for that someone who cares for us and wants us as much as we want them! we all want to know more about the coupledom world and we all want to look better as girls! we all scheme and plan and we tend to forget the act doesnt last as long as your true self! and i love this movie! i wouldn't mind watching it over and over again!

the aftermath, i'm currently listening to the soundtrack for the movie. the band Stiff Dylans are cool. really cool. but actually the actor Aaron Johnson isnt in the band like in the movie but besides that, the songs are cool. i also like the other tracks.

btw, Aaron Johnson is so hot! hahahahahah! if you dont believe me, go watch the movie! all the picky girls i know about guys are absolutely DROOLING over him! he's that hot! hahahahahah!

i just came back from kl! haha! my bag's zipper broke that means only one thing..... i bought a lil extra! hahahahaha! sadly the extra wasnt for everyone! hahaha! i only got a thing or two for a couple of people! if you didnt get one, so sorry mate!

lovin livin and breathing, especially laughin,
joyce

i'm at loss with words...

today i ran the school marathon, 5.5km... no biggie la... nearly everyone ran.. except for the few that ran away like cowards with the excuse of not liking the sun or sweat..

i ran with wen yiing this year. or rather we did brisk walking. fast stroll finishing it with confidence. haha. we were no where near the top ten. hahahah. probably just above fifty or so.

after that, as usual, i walked home but before that i kinda called my sister. so she just assumed i was gonna wait for her. i called! not mis-called! aiks...

so, i arrived home. on the way. well, i've been walking home for about three weeks not... and observing people i did. here's the conclusion there are more and more childish and naive children nowadays due to very anxious and over protective parents. i know you probably went: cheh~~..... or.... thats it?
well yeah. the parents are waiting outside of school in their cars half an hour or an hour before schools out. they wait with their mags or their knitting and their phones or even just sitting with other parents to gossip or complain!

then, when the bell rings, they rush into school to pick up their precious gems who are screaming and complaining and then rushing into the car to use their oh so good iPods or their super new phones which are so much more canggih than mine!

and while the kids are waiting comfortably in the car, the parents are way at the back carrying their bags and water bottles and stuff. i'm like why torture yourself so badly when your kid is perfectly healthy and capable of carrying their own bags?

i remember when me and my sisters were at elementary school, all my mom did was drop me off or pick me up. and we didnt even bother asking her to send us in or walk us in or carry our bags for us. we didnt ask them to bring us food or take our bags. and if you ask the parents they'll say that the bags now are heavier and they have more books now. we still have the same subjects as we did when we were their age, we managed to carry all the books by ourselves. more and more spoilt and stupid.

and parents nowadays, are utterly stupid. they will just about park anywhere to pick up their kids. imagine this. two way road. mother on the left road comes out and parks in the opposite side of the road. PARKS. she then gets out and leaves to get her children then she finds out her child's class isn't over then WAITS at the school hallway. what she chose to ignore was the fact that she parked her car in the middle of the road and not for a few minutes but ten. her car was nearly smashed by a four wheel drive driven by a very fierce and violent man. her car was just a small suzuki swift. she then comes a whole fifteen minutes later and gets rude faces, ugly fingers and very harsh words all of which she deserves due to her act of total idiocracy and stupidity.

i love my parents. they weren't too strict but strict altogether. they weren't over protective in fact we were the type that took care of ourselves. i hope i can go half the good job they did when i'm a parent one day. just maybe. haha.

loving the hate,
joyce

confessions... thoughts... figured it out....

you know how when you finish a paper and there's so long till the exam time is up and you're just sitting there either checking your answers, dreaming or doodling or just going through your thoughts and recent issues?

yeah that was today for me. i had my english and accounts. and because of english i had another 45 minutes to spare. i was thinking and dreaming and doodling.

when it just hit me, what have i done? instead of that someone playing with my feelings, i was playing with his. i didnt like this guy at all. i liked him just as a friend. and yet when it came to that point i just assumed that i liked him. i just admitted i liked him when actually he's nothing to me but a friend. nothing more nothing less. and yet i flirted with him and played with his feelings just as some other guy had done to me before.

after that thought, i had so much i wanted to say. yet thinking of me telling him all i wanted to say gave me shudders that i might hurt him.

and thinking back at the thoughts of actually dating this guy made me laugh, and you know when you laugh in the exam, heads will turn and the teacher will glare, yeah that happened. this guy and me yeah compatible you might say but other than some friends and currents issues and music we have nothing else in common. haha. he likes me alot. i dont like him. i feel kinda sad about telling him.

and the worst part, am gonna see him in a day or so. craperamas eh? i know.

should i or should i not? can i or can't i ? to be or not to be? i think i've made my choice. i shouldn't. i can't. and it will not be. even if i tried.

oh dear Lord save my soul,
joyce

eagerness creeping in..

yay!!!! chinese new year is a couple of days away!!!!!!! i'm going back to kl!!!! yay!!!!! yay!!!

so excited.... even though i go back three times a year to kl... it never seems enough... i always want to stay on a few more days.. sadly that rarely happens..... but i'm just really glad i'm going back... my sabah friends think i've lost it... whenever i start to smile whenever i day dream.. hahahah...

thoughts and rants,
joyce

dont question me... me and my actions...

i havent known you for long...
i havent known about you that much...
i met you and you quickly became my friend...
yeah we have common interest...
but...
are we rushing into this?
its like we're just rushing into this head first...
i admit.. i like you...
but...
i still have my moments.. my doubts...
what do i do?
i have no idea whether you're just playing with my mind or
do you really feel that way?
you end every sentence with a smile or a LOL...
its either i just did something good for myself or
i did something utterly stupid...
i cannot resist asking this..
can we make it through the year?
can we even make it?
can we both still like each other throughout the whole PMR year?
or is this just childs play?
or is this just a game you love to play?
confused excited doubtful.
i'm not saying no.
but why am i scared to say yes?

totally utterly at loss,
joyce

far away land was super cool....

hey there beautifuls! i was at a place called Kasih Sayang Resort And Spa recently! well, to be more specific.... new years day.... my sister and my family and my super far away yet connected relatives were all gathered here! we had a nice lunch and were really happy due to the magnificent view and the cool whether to usher in the new year! and in that picture, is my sister and I or rather a monster and I! we were supposed to smile at the camera.... i did... while she tried biting off my head... sigh...

all's fair in love and war,
joyce

school, sports, and stories

second week of form three and i'm already causing drama... aiks...

stories have already been spread about me liking this guy who just moved from miri to my class....
I was just being friendly since he was new and he knew no one, so i introduced myself and tried making small talk.... and then those stupid girls had to go all oooh aaah.... craperamas....

I got chosen to throw the javelin.... and i was chosen because during the selection, i was irritated by this friend of mine who was sitting far away... he kept saying my name out loud whenever positions were being filled in... so i picked up a pen and threw it at him and it hit him on the head... and he went aduh sakit... and the teacher watching me which i didnt notice wrote my name down on the javelin form.... i was like: what??!?! no!!!! i dont know how?!?! and all the teacher said was: i saw what i needed to see.... you can... with some practice...

school's been ok i guess... i'm actually kinda sad coz since we're all in different classes... all of us rarely get the chance to talk or see each other.... i kinda miss all the chinese monkeys that used to hang with me... now i'm stuck with all english and all smart people and their all a bit more stuck up and hard to get along... i really miss em....

chinese new year's just around the corner.. i even have excell exams next week... form one and two stuff... aiks.... hope i do well.....

reminscence and happiness,
joyce

first week of school in a few words... mayb more...

in a blink of an eye, its already the friday of the first week of school!!!! but school's not over...

now that i'm form three... we have class on saturdays... and since our school is super weird... they have arranged that our sports day will be held in march but... we've already started sports practice... and as i am writing this.... time is ticking away because.... at three pm.. i have sports practice...

will tell you more soon...

prob sunday or next week or whatever.

sighs,
joyce

First Day Of Form Three

Today was the first day of school.

As usual, i'm all nervous and hyper and scared.

I woke up at around 5 because i couldn't sleep no more but funnily when it was about time to go to school, i felt super sleepy.

Arrived at school and i felt the surge of energy around me. Whereas i felt dead and stiff.

I saw a group of my friends at the canteen and walk forward to join them.

Half of them were asleep and the other half already had all the gossip and all the energy to gossip and giggle and laugh.

I waited to for Yiing to arrive so both of us to go to our new class. We tend to stick together coz she's small pretty and super smart whereas i'm tall not so pretty just above average smart.
She's got a bad sense of humour. I'm funny in a good way ( not too much on jokes but i say funny stuff). She's the type of person that only makes friends when pressured. I make friends whenever i wish. She's quiet when around strangers. I go along with the flow when around strangers. so yeah. She's ying and i'm yang.

So yeah we went to class and rushed forward to grab window seats. We both loe window seats. When we are fuming we really need somewhere to look at that doesnt involve humans. We sat near each other and only talked to people we knew.

There was a new kid from Kuching and Selangor. The Kuching Kid's name is Adrian. He's tall, totally quiet and thin. Shy. I introduced myself and he did as well coz he sat behind me. It was a pretty sad day for him. He moved seats a couple of times. He was being called the new kid. He didnt manage to make any guy friends at all. He ate alone. sat alone. talked to no one. kinda sad.

We had a slow day today. it seemed as if class was never going to end. puan carol is super nice. super sarcastic. puan olivia is ok i guess. very polite and nice. but then again, all teachers seem nice at first rite? hahhahahah...

School ended at 12.50. gosh. i was like huh? so late...

the weather was scorching hot... just five minutes under then sun and you're like the muffins in the oven... sweaty and a lil cranky....

mich offered me the ride home that could save me from crankyness... or so i thought...

her mom used the st james way.. so she kinda got stuck there.... so i had to walk down from shan tao all the way home... which is actually longer than the route i had to take.... no wonder people say dont take short cuts...

when i got home... i was like.... THANK GOD FOR AIR CONDITIONING!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahah..... my parents were like: YOU ACTUALLY WALKED HOME A?!?!?!

my response: you mean you guys were joking?

their response: no but we didnt expect you to really do it.

my dad added on: if you could put that drive onto your school work, 7A's is a piece of cake.

my thoughts: if only you knew.

I had lunch and did school work.

it wasnt a bad day. it wasnt exactly a good one either.

oh dear.

thoughts and rants,
joyce

So weird..

I had the weirdest dream last night......

Like really weird....

I dreamt about this guy who used to be a good friend of mine...

now he is a friend i guess... we've grown apart.... so we rarely talk to each other.....

i havent spoken to him in abt 2 years....

so about this dream.... it wasnt anything dramatic.....

just us hanging out... catching up..... watching a movie...

and that was it....

i mean what kinda dream is that?

and waking up from the dream i felt really happy... then thinking back i was like woah! i just dreamt abt that guy! and i felt nauseous from thinking about him!

hehe. i know. dont say it. keep it to yourself.

totally confused,
joyce

a lil juicy info~!

did you know?!!!?!


there's this boy called JOHN LIM JI XIONG!!!!!

WHO IS TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH THIS OTHER GIRL CALLED CELINE SOON~!!!!

hahahahha!

dont bother asking why i'm doing this!


hehe,
joyce

my new class...

09 is a new year to me...

it isnt one of those years where you know you'll see a sea of faces which are familiar to you..

this year it starts with a sea of faces unknown to me....

i had to register today.... i woke up at 7.15... got dressed and all... i thought i woke up early only to come down stairs to find my parents ready and working..

Me and my mom reach school at 8am sharp... I see a couple of my friends.... haha... so happy to see em....

I was all ready to see the teacher only to find the teachers office empty... i was like you've got to be kidding me?!

they were in a meeting with the monkey king himself. oh dear.

My mom was pissed. starting talking real loud. not very classy. not like her usual posh self.

We came back at 11 again. finally i'm registered to the damn school.

sigh. so here i am telling you this awful story.

got my class schedule. lookin at it makes me feel a lil sick.

Then again: I AM NOT READY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! I DONT WANT TO!

I want to sleep in...

wake up at brunch time....

but then morning class does have its upside....

we get more free time in the afternoon... hehe....

have to use the comp now or else i may have to use it only after PMR... aiks.....

i will miss my old classmates more than ever now!

the crazy Dota kings... The insane Xiao Wei and her sidekick handsome Stanley.... basketball queen Davina...... immature Jeremy.... my good friend Samuel and his half brother Lizard....

good times fly,
joyce

what i feel inside, no one knows.

this is by my friend. Benjamin Teoh. a talented fellow he is. although i didnt write it. the contents are exactly my thoughts and my feelings. funny.

Cry,
Please don’t lie,
When you avoid my eye,
It makes me want to cry,

Hi,
Please don’t let the conversation die,
When you end so quickly with a bye,
It makes me want to cry,

Why,
There’s a reason you don’t reply,
But my imagination isn’t my ally,
It makes me want to cry,

Try,
To find out what you imply,
Without getting you awry,
Please don’t say goodbye,

Don’t put a wall between us,
Because there’s nothing worse,
But I’m probably overreacting,
Just telling you I’m here for you, for everything.

thoughts and rants on nothing or something,
joyce