This really stupid/crazy video..........

For all those girls who really want guys to know how hard working we have to be to please them please make them watch this video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTC4qkb8Ppk&feature=user


aiks,
Joyce

My most boring holiday ever..........

Gosh....

All i did this past few days was.....

Use the comp.....

Study my school subjects......

Watch TV.........

Listen to all my favorite songs.........

Shop for groceries........

Play with my dog...........

Do some work for my mom.......

and the daily needs la e.g: eat, sleep, talk, laugh, exercise.........


aiks,
Joyce

Whats the actual problem?

What is the problem?

Why can't you just tell me instead of just keeping quiet and being all awkward?

Why can't you just get off that high horse of yours and deal with the problem now?

Why won't you deal with me?

Are you scared of the consequences?

Are you scared you're gonna lose me as a friend?

Would you rather have me wondering and not knowing than actually fixing it?

Don't give me that excuse!

You know what the problem is but you're just ignoring it

I don't believe in the saying Time will heal it....

In medicine, maybe it works

But social problems, no it doesnt work

Not all the time anyway....

I'm not asking the question this time....



thoughts and rants.
Joyce

I think..............

I think i'm going through the stage of isolation from everyone..........

I currently like to stay silent, listen to music, study, read books and only talk to several selected friends...............

Don't ask me why..........

I have no idea as well...........

I know i sound like a total geek but yeah............

its happening.................

and all of a sudden 95% of my friends are idiots in my mind......

for no reason..........

maybe i'm not thinking properly......

or rather i'm thinking too harshly or mean...........

and another part of my circle is too serious and naive.........

they think that the world only works in their favor..........

sigh...............

God help me............


thoughts and rants,
Joyce

Talking through the mic with leonie lim....

I was online on MSN when the sound: ding ding.

IT was Leonie Lim. This girl was in my school but she moved to bahang. Closer to her home.

We decided to talk through the mic coz we got tired of typing.

My mic has some problems.

I think maybe it doesnt like me.

Sighs.

Leonie is Fun. Funny. Pretty. Can sing.

PLUS SHE'S A GREAT FRIEND~!!!!!!

hehe,
Joyce

when you're mean, i'm mean too...

I hate it when people keep sighing and their being all cranky, and its just one word that as if it fixes everything: PUASA!

And then there are those that act all cute but deep down their just guilty after doing things that are wrong towards you!

Now, that i'm mean to her she acts all sorry and soft and ''cute'', before this, she was loud, bossy, and mean!

Now, she wants to be my friend!

Now, she can't wait to get on my good side!

Gosh, some people are such losers!

If I were half as mean as my sisters can be, She would have gone and hid under car!

I hate it when people betray me!

Especially after you warn them!

Betray me and you will feel my wrath of fury!

Now, you sit alone in class and eat alone at recess!

HA HA! What a pathetic sight!

That's the price you pay for betraying me!


I'm mean,
Joyce

Pretending to be someone you're not....

Do you know how frustrating it is when you act like someone else?

Tell them you're name is this but its actually that?

If you just plan to scare them, then do it a while and then give it up after maybe five text messages..

If you plan to date that person, then please tell them the truth or you'll end with the break up within a day or two... .


Pretending to be within the clique is even harder...

When you don't fit, then why bother turning into someone else....

Just be yourself......

And even if you want to be like them, you can, but don't turn into them totally!

Why lie and say oh, i like that too, when the truth is you really don't like it!

Why lie to be someone you're not?

WHY?

And when people find out, the person at loss is yourself!

People will label you a Fake or Liar! And people like me will not be very happy with you.


Aiks,
Joyce

pick your parties well...

I learnt from my lesson...........

Don't go to a party just cause that person has been a friend of yours for a long time...

Don't go just because...

I learnt that....

going to a party that is organized by a messy person will only result as you wasting your time and money going....

doing nothing, hanging around, not deciding on what to do is a waste of time!

I got to hang out with michelle markus though.....

She's ok.... Petite, Pretty, typical chinese though she isnt one...

Aiks..... wasted a beautiful sunday..........


Aiks,
Joyce

Going Crazy.......

The pressure is on to score in my finals......

I must ignore all dramas going on around me.....

Must not get all touchy on issues...

Must focus on studies....

Don't care if someone makes a racist comment even about your unracist joke....

Don't care...

They can die for all I care.....



Aiks...
Joyce

Eleven days away....

I know i should be studying like crazy for my exams but i'm not really studying...

I study for an hour everyday...

by study, it doesn't mean doing my homework, it means studying la~!

Somehow, i feel guilty...

like I'm lying to people...

but i'm not....

i do study....

but i guess just not enough....

aiks,
Joyce

Its over...

Its over!

The cold, awkward, silent war is over!!!

Finally, someone speaks up!

I just hope the peace will continue on!!!


HAHA,
Joyce

TV!!!!

I love watching tv!
Its wrong that i watch two hours of TV a day!
And i only study an hour or so!

but its so nice to watch tv especially if its GossipGirl or Lipstick Jungle!

You get high from watching all the drama, the trouble, the hot guys and girls!

hahah! my obsession! hahahha!

crazy times,
Joyce

funny....

Its funny now that my two friends aren't talking to each other.
I feel like I'm the divider in between two highways.
Mich, Chinese, tall, pretty, likable.
Lia, Malay, short, curvy, likable.
And its such coincidence that they both say the same things about each other.

She's so self absorbed,
She doesn't even want to talk to me,
She's so cold,
She's so Malay already,
She's so Chinese already,
She likes them better already,
She just drifted away from me i guess,
I don't want to lose her as a friend but i don't think she wants me,
I don't need her if she doesn't need me!

Lia and Mich have been friends for how long? Five years? or Six?

Its not my turn to say anything but then again just for you guys!

Kiss and make up or hold your tongue till the end of time!

thoughts and rants,
Joyce

Why do we have to be that way?

Why do we have to be this way?
Why is it we have to take the hit every time someone else screws up?
Why is it we hear rumors and believe it sometimes?
Why is it we start rumors about others so we feel better?
Why is it we like to discriminate others?
Why is it we tend to make things hard for others who are different than we are?
Why is it so hard to be different than others?
Why is it we like to pull the weak ones down?
Why is it when someone tells you this but they mean that and you're confused but in the end you still get hit by them?
Why is it when you like someone else you tell me?
Why is it that it hurts when you tell me so?
Why is it that my life is filled with drama?
Why is it that when something i want and am working for is laid right in front of me i tend to give it away by accident?
Why haven't learnt to grasp opportunities like everyone else my age?
Why is it that I'm so straight forward that i'm mean?
Why is it I'm rude?
Why is it I'm racist?

I take the hit because everyone thinks I'm indestructible.
But just to let you know, I'm human too!

And just like everyone else my age, we are mean but i guess that's the only way to survive high school without being laughed and squished.

And yes, I hate it when someone tells me its this but means that! I hate it! Is it so hard to tell someone directly what you mean?

Ever heard the line: survival of the fittest? If you haven't, then i'm sorry for your shallow knowledge! but that's one of the lines i survive by. If you're weak, people will either push you away or out.

I just need time to learn the trick into catching opportunities. just give me time.

I am straight forward.
You can call me mean, rude, or racist. But just to be clear, the whole country could be racist! Racism: e.g: chinese hating malay or stuff like that.

WAKE UP ALREADY! everyone likes to think that their race is better than others! Its just the way we are! Everyone is a lil racist. and when you start to break your bridges with others just because of their race or lil things, then just to let you know, you're losing your social status as a friend for others to see.

The bottom line is I'd rather be straight forward and be called rude or mean than be called a liar or a back stabbing bitch!


Thoughts and shouts,

Joyce

Why do we have to be that way?

SPEAK UP *****!

the biggest problem in society today is not having enough guts to speak their mind or what they think should be done!

i know i might be a hypocrite in this sense but i think not speaking your mind and keeping it in and then when someone says it then only do you jump on the boat and say: yeah i was thinking that too!

LIKE: YOU COULDN'T HAVE SAID IT EARLIER!?

I feel like people always need the push to speak! as if they have glue stuck on their lips and tearing it open will allow them to speak!

not speaking up on a problem with a friend will only push you further away!

keeping quiet and letting it unfold will take too long and maybe if its too slow you've lost a friend!

wake up people!


thoughts and rants,
Joyce

the opportunities i let slip past me...

I am clumsy....

I am not a very keen opportunist....


I let the guy i like fall for my best friend TWICE....


I let the teacher who trusted me have doubts in my work...


I let my friends think I am hard and cold....


Is there a way for me to turn these things around?



thoughts,
Joyce

A crazy day!!! hahaha!

Saturday, 30th August 2008.

I woke up at nine. I had to go to the stadium to watch this Karate competition. There were loads of foreigners competing, Kazakhstan, Taipei, Saudi Arabia, Japan, Kuwait, Malaysia(duh), etc.

They were absolutely all out fierce and determined to kill one another. The fiercest were the Taipei fighters and Saudi Arabians. Fu-Yoh! I was so amazed by their sudden moves and attacks! My friends and I were like gasping all the way from start to finish! Aiks...

Went home at about 11.45 or twelve. Ate lunch. Did my house chores. Homework. Watched my TV. Slept. Cleaned my room. Read a book. You know me... i laze.... hehehe.....

At 7.45pm or so, me and my sister went out, i felt sorry for leaving my mom at home but then again she was busy watching her Korean drama series which is actually nice but a lil too much drama for me though.... We went to popular in center point, to be specific, Palm square.... I bought myself a couple of books to study for finals... as you know i am lazy so i need to kill it off and study.... well, i'll try!

So then my sister caught up with her friends and decided to meet them at the cinema at 9 or so. Since we had an hour and both of us have not eaten lunch, we went to fish and co for dinner! I ordered my usual and their best! Fish and chips! Fattening i know but i guess its comfort food! And my ce(sister) ordered her caesar salad with calamari which are absolutely to die for!

But here is my main point in this story!

As we were about to leave, here came this old man or rather con man!

He said he was a fortune teller! I was like yeah and i'm the minister of this country!

but for some odd reason, my usual GO TO HELL LA YOU sister was like, i dunno, slow or a lil stupid and let him sit at our table and tell her fortune!

I was like: WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!??!!!

He held her palm and started telling her her 'future'! He said she is kind, has a soft personality, will have a good husband, two children, one good and one bad, will have a million bucks when she is married, she has good parents and they work as clerks and just have enough to use and other shit like that la!

First of all, my parents have not been clerks since about 20-25 years ago! They both own companies of their own! And my sister has good results not average like the guy said!

Then after when he was done, he asked for ten bucks and my sister gave it to him!

I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN IN TO YOU! HE IS A CON MAN! A FREAKIN LIAR!

I could not believe my eyes when she handed the note over to him! I was stunned! Shocked! In disbelief!

To all those reading, please say no out loud or shake your head really hard if you ever come across such cheaters!

Ok, so then we watched this singaporean/malaysian movie called : money not enough 2!

it is freakin funny la! Its funny but has a morale behind all the stupidity!

I came home at two thirty in the mornin and my mom wasn't happy about but i made her happy by buying her cakes from secret recipe! ahhahahaha!

The way to a womans heart is through her stomach!

Haha,
Joyce