I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! for now. hehe.

I got my results today. i'm happy. though could have been better but whadahell.

been thinking alot about my situation lately. hmm. maybe i should tweak a few things about my life. like my relationship with god. how i talk to my friends and my family. my sisters in particular. maybe i should try to be a lil more soft and quiet. think it'll work?

i need new shoes. and a new phone. my current phone? terrible. its given up on me. not entirely. but its starting to! i need new shoes cause the one i have now are starting to discolor and its freaking me out!

my plans on studying in australia might be coming true! hahaha! am so happy! My dad is thinking about it! in fact, he's been talking about quite often now! my fingers are crossed and i'm praying hard about it too!

been thinking about him lately but you know what? maybe i'm not ready yet. i think i need to prioritize and i dont think boys are first on my list. its gonna be me, God, studies, and then boys. sound good? agreed? okay.

next motion, i've been thinking lately that i really wanna be a doctor. not a dentist. i dont think being a dentist will keep me sane. in fact, i think it'll drive me over the edge. can you imagine seeing the insides of someone mouth everyday? crap. thats insane. Doctors on the other hand do everything from the brain to your toes. i think i'll specialize in either the heart or just specialize in being a general specialist. hehe. i've done research. haha!

i miss IAN PANG!!!!!!!!!!! my teddy bear! he's in aussie. sigh. that chubby thing. hmm.
in fact, both me and yiing really do miss him. he's like the medium between both of us. makes us happy and smiley and crazy. he's like the line between ying and yang which is me and yiing. ahaha!

i havent called my grandparents lately. hmm. might call em later. today duan wu jie which means rice dumpling day. my mom used to make those when she wasnt working. she used to make special ones for me! just beans, sausages and mushrooms! i dont want the eggs or oysters! ahhaha! now, she just buys them. and sincerely, their nothing compared to my moms. i guess thats why i miss the times when she was just a housewife and not a businesswoman. hmm. because of her cooking and her way of making the house feel at clean, lovely and homey. hmm.

now that i have nearly ten days of freedom. i'm going to split it into a few ways. One, study. Two, sleep. Three, run with my dog. Four, go out with friends. Five, study. Six, help mom. Fair enough? hahah.

i think whats most important is that i start sharing more and more of my life with HIM. i think i've been neglecting Him alot. Not praying. Not reading the bible. The only time i do spend time with him is when i go to Youth. and thats only abt three hours. Three hours in one week? thats less than my studying. crap. so now. I'm going to start spending at least half and hour with Him. reading the bible. doing ODJ. praying. i think its going to help me in life and spiritually? right?

hmm. desperate times call for desperate measures. hehe.

you think i dont know.
how wrong could you be,
joyce