life is passing me by.... what should i do?

its been a while since i blogged...time really does fly without you noticing...

in class, i feel a little bit weird... the class i'm in isn't like the classes i'm used to... its very.... unwelcoming... no one cares about you...

they hardly acknowledge your presence and even if they do talk to you, they sound as if their unwilling and obligated to. even if they dont mean it. you can hear it in their voice.

everyone's telling me to forget it cause they'll come to you when they fine out about how good you are.

but am i good enough? am i cool enough? am i nice enough to even be their friend? i know i sound awfully stupid but its bugging me. not all the time but. still. its like a stone in your shoe. you'll get used to it but it bugs you anyway.

my circle of friends that consisted of Xiao Wei, Davina, Stanley, Samuel, Li Ze, Chris, Samson, wen Yiing, Dylan, Nicole, and Madeline. now its just down to me, Wen Yiing, Dylan and Nicole.and the newest additions, chong vui vun and aaron yong. chong vui vun is a bit... well gay... coz... he has only a sister to look up to and I dont blame him... at least he isnt a fake-ish kinda gay... .Aaron on the other hand is kinda cool. he's a athlete with mad. he's friendly and nice. the best part abt him! HE ISNT IMMATURE!!!!! haahahahah...

its Valentine's day on saturday! all the lovey dovey couples have already started planning for this oh-so-lovely-day!!! well, i'm glad i;m single! hahaha!dont hav to fuss on what to get or buy for your partner! i think its wonderful to have a day to shower your loved one with gifts but at such a young age, its truly unnecessary! you can barely earn a wage of rm200 a month why spend a great deal amount of your PARENTS money on your supposedly GIRL or BOYFRIEND when the possibility of the break up is like a month or two away?

on the positive note, i am jealous of those lucky bi***es who get flowers and gifts on vday... haha... envious would be a better word tho... haha! wishing i were in their shoes? not so much. maybe. maybe not. but i have a better way of spending valentine night! ahha! i'm going to church! i heard a loud gasp escape your lips! how dare you! hahahaha! yeah. i took advice from my relatives on going to youth! thank you vincent! i think its probably time i spend more time with the Man Upstairs!

well... thats about it... i think.... am listening to The Fray - You Found Me... really nice...

its time thats changing me...
joyce